Genres: Ansgt, Romance, Dark, Mature content (KaiLu, SeLu, LayHan)

Chapters: 16

Published on Sep 9| 17 upvotes| 315 subscribers

Okay I have a lot to say about this fanfic. Be ready.

1. Music is a big part of my life as a writer. I don't know if I'll be able to write fanfictions without listening to songs. They easily inspire me and unleash my wild imagination. With that being said, I listen to different genres of music to keep my brain working. For this particular story, my first inspiration is Creep by Radiohead. This genre of music is very different from what I usually listen to (kpop, jpop, cpop, pop in general). Radiohead is a rockband I knew about from my brother. Since I was thinking of writing a stalkerAU for KaiLu, I browsed through my bro's playlist and this is what I've found. The melody, lyrics, voice, even the instrumental; they're all on point. I fell in love after the first time I listened to it. 

Aside from this song, I was also inspired by Blue Foundation's 'Bonfire', 'Ghost' and 'Silhouettes'; Of Monster and Men's 'Love, love love'.

All these songs set the perfect mood for the story.

2. Kai and Jongin's characters are based on a Japanese drama I've watched before. I forgot the title, sorry! It was many years ago. [Spoiler: I find it really 'dark' and 'disturbing' that a person who has his own identity has to kill it for the sake of the people around him. Jongin has to sacrifice his own life to relive his twin brother. Imagine how painful and sad it is.) As for Luhan, I didn't intend to make his character weak but somehow, it just happened. Sehun's character is something I find attractive yet scary. Don't be fooled by his passivness. He is very twisted despite the bright smile and handsome face. Yixing is your typical lovesick friend who isn't sure if he's going to confess because he's too shy and fidgetty and he loves Luhan so much that's all. lol

3. I had great plans for this fic. I was so elated to write the next chapters. I was looking forward to update and read your comment. But in the process, I lost my files. You have no idea how mad I was. After that, I felt discouraged. At the moment, I am still recalling my previous ideas but I'm having a hard time. I don't want to abandon this story because this has a lot of potential (I think?). I really apologize to those who are disappointed. PS I need help at the moment. :(

Nonetheless, I'd like to thank everyone who subscribed to this fic and upvoted despite my inconsistency. That's all I can say for now.