Ken~      
I think that if I would be less loud or maybe cut off my head so I didn't make everyone mad...I would, they guys are always telling me I need to shut up because I'm screaming or too hyper. But I can't I'm just that way! I can't help it and the more hate I get I let myself down " what's on the agenda today " I asked Leo because we shared A room together and I was still laying in bed " I'm not sure..maybe get up and see " he than looked at me and walked to the washroom with his shower bag " thanks! " I yelled just a little for him to hear me as I got off my back and started to get ready for my own shower..we have to washroom but for some reason mine is always broken. I knocked on Leo's washrooms door " after you can I use your shower, mine isn't working again " I asked " sure " I heard the shower go off and the curtain move. The next thing I know is Leo is standing in front of me with a towel on his bottom half " well..we don't have all day, I'll get dressed out here " he said as I closed the door to his washroom and start the worm water 
After my shower I got dressed and exited the room looking for my members, I looked everywhere...but they were nowhere : sorry kenjima..we all went out, Leo said your not feeling well so..here is some kisses -N : my heart skipped " he hates me that much..." My voice went deep into thoughts
" is that his plane, make the members forget about me " I turned and looked out the widows of the living room
After I ate food and played video games the members finally came back.." Ken how you feelin " N asked " I'm completely fine.." Leo's eyes widened at what I had said Leo than took my arm and tuged me to the stairs " I seen you have been down lately I didn't think you wanted to come bungee jumping with us " Leo than let go of my hand " ... " my face went red from the treatment I was getting from him " God damn it ken.." Leo than smiled and reached into his pocket " I got you something " I felt my chest beat fast as the treatment wasn't hate coming from him he took out 15 won " why money " I asked " so you can go out alone...and not feel left out " I sighed loudly in my head - why alone..because I'm annoying- my mind was yelling but my outside voice was quite...
 " if you want I could come " Leo than frowned " but Ravi want to go eat together soon..sorry ken " I felt my chest drop everything my stomach was swishing my head was spinning all I recall from that was...PHHHHH I ran to the bathroom ready to throw up all my brains but when I felt a hand on my back patting me I looked up to Leo bent over with me while helping the air come through my lungs " calm down...are you alright " he asked rubbing my back in a circle " mmh..I think so " I wiped my face with a peace of paper towel and stood up and go to mine and Leo's door, Leo was following me..I think because he was concerned I rushed into my part of the room grabbing my phone to see if seokjin would like to hang out..I didn't feel like being with my members today. Maybe spending sometime away will make everything better? 

" where are you going " Ravi seemed sad to see me pack my bags " sorry guys...ill be here to work and than go back to my appointment " I said leaving the dorms in tears because the boys ( except Leo ) were all upset and I couldn't resist but to let tears go..I knew this would hurt, but what am I doing to myself 

I was thinking about how Leo spends time with Ravi a lot and the fact that Leo didn't wanna go with me but with Ravi to dinner...why was this? 

" KEN " I heard leo yell but it was so innocent because when Leo yelled it made me smile, it wasn't ever a mad yell his yell was like a puppy barking but lightly I turned around with tears on my cheeks to a Leo running up to me " why..why didn't you say goodbye to me " Leo had lost his breath " yah. Because you didn't seem to care..so I thought you would call me annoying if I said goodbye " I replied " KEN! I care..I care a lot and the fact that your leaving me alone in our dorm.whos going to be there for your to cuddle when your scared? Why are you leaving ! " he than started to get embarrassed and hide his face " ..Leo...? " I than ducked down to see his face " I thought you hated me...because I'm annoying " my voice let out a soft sentence as Leo lifted his face " your not annoying...and ken..the reason of me being like this isn't because of you, it's cause of my feelings for you " Leo than blushed as my mouth formed a smile " are you saying you love me " I asked..

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That's all you guys get so far..imma make the next chapter long !!