"I-- I just don't love you anymore"

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

*wakes up*

I feel heavy. I don't want to get up. I'm tired. I look at the wall clock it was 10am. Ugghh... why do i need to check my watch? what for? am i waiting for someone? sigh.... whats the point i have no reason to live anyway. I think i'll go back to sleep. 

*door suddenly opens*

"How long are you going to stay in bed, idiot?". I looked at who it was and of course who would have the guts to come barging in my room except for Jessie. I remember when we were kids, i used to play alone alot until i met her. All the other kids were afraid of me because of how my eyes look strong and piercing to look at. I get called out for fights just because of my eyes. I don't really know why but it seems my eyes give me trouble almost everywhere. But i remember so well when i wass being cornered by a bunch of boys wanting to beat me up because i kept looking at them like "that". Honestly i dont even know what that mean but then, before this boy hits me she came with a stick on her hand and came beating them up with it. My legs were so weak because i was so scared but would they know that? of course not its all because of my eyes. I fell down and tried not to cry but jessie came and gave me a pat on the head as she says "It's all right". My tears just came out like an unending waterfall. 

Since then we've been together, we do everything together, we eat together, we sleep and even cry together...

 

*slaps*

"You! what??! am i talking to a wall????" Ughhh i forgot she was here i left my mind drift. I got up and told her,

"what the are you doing in my room J?"

She took my clothes that was on the floor and threw it on my eyes, "Dude, im your bestfriend. I'll do whatever i want. Now, get up and take a shower."

"ugghhh how did you even get inside? i just moved here! what are you a stalker?" i grunted as i slowly got up and went to the kitchen counter.

 

*jessie runs to the fridge and gets an apple*

"Who you calling a stalker? *chews* are you an idiot i live here." 

Oh right i forgot, we live together now. I look at jessie at how much i appreciate her. A friend that can never be replaced. "So, seriously why'd you wake me up?"

Jessie gave me this look that i know is scheming something that im pretty sure i will not approve of. ", i know that look. what do you want?"

She laugh and skipped every step as she comes closer. While using that irritating tiny voice, "Actuaaallyy~ there's this party tonight and-- "

As soon as i heared her say "party" i was like NOPE. Definitely. I looked at her with a dismay face showing how annoyed i am and told her, "NO."

"but you didnt even let me finish!" she protested.

"Well i don't care.  I don't like parties." i replied. I walked towards my closet and looked for what clothes to wear

"There's gonna be cute guyyys!" she whined.

I stopped what i was doing and i looked at her straight. "Jessie Dawn Curtis, you should know best how i feel about right now. You're not that numb?!" i stormed out of her sight and went straight to the bathroom. 

 

*walks heavily and bangs the shower door*

 

ugh! she should know what i feel right now. I just can't. I just broke up with Kurt. I know its been half a year already but you know, i just cant pretend as if it never hurts! He was my boyfriend, my first as a matter of fact. How could i forget him. He was the first guy to complement me about my eyes. The eyes that ive always resented. Sigh... i got in the shower and took a bath i refreshed my mind thinking maybe i was too harsh with jessie i meant she's only trying to comfort me. I should really apologize.

 

*opens shower door*

 

"Jessie?" I saw her sitting on the bed as i got out of the shower. "Hey.. umm" i slowly approached her and sat down next to her in just my towel, "look, im sorry for being an to you but i would really prefer not going to a party. It's not something i'd want to get into." I continued explaining to her why i wouldn't go and as usual jessie will really take no for an answer. We kept arguing until i came to a point where i was just like "OKAY IT ILL GO!"

 

She danced happily in the room and told me to get dressed because we were going shopping. "Come on, mia get dressed. we're gonna shopping!" i looked at her with a disgusted face. I mean i love shopping but im just..... really broke. "I can't im broke." Jessie just rolled her eyeballs and gave me this look that says "stupid". 

"Are you stupid?, she said. See i told you she'd say that and nooow she's gonna come hold my hand and say "i got you bro."

*walks to mia; holds her hand*

"I got you bro" she chuckled. It's creepy how i know what she's gonna say. It's weird. Well i think our friendship is weird.