Sunwoo opened his eyes, they looked lifeless as hell. He looked at the other side of the bed, it was empty.. ever since he's gone. Sunwoo hugged the other pillow, he can still smell his scent. Even though it's been a long time since he wasn't back.. the scent is still familiar that he'll recognize it no matter what. Gripping at the pillow, he forced to close his eyes again.. trying to sleep once again and was successful though. He smiled. He was still with him, he was still happy with Sunwoo there. They were laughing as they're walking at a park while holding their hands, Sunwoo kept on looking at him, still mesmerized by other's beauty. He felt like he's the happiest person whenever he was with him. He knew it was a dream but for Sunwoo, it's his reality. He'll never let go of this dream. “Hyung!” Sunwoo woke up. He saw a familiar guy beside him and his world shattered once again, being slapped by reality that the latter is gone and will never be back again to him. Sunwoo was too immorsed on his thoughts that he wasn't even listening to what the guy was saying. “Hyung, you're not getting better. You're like a skeleton now,are you still eating?! You looked like a lifeless doll right now that you're scaring the living outta me!”,Seungjun said as he put both of his hands at his waist,“Enough of this already,hyung!” But Sunwoo didn't respond. He was just staring at the other side of the bed and he was trembling a lot, Seungjun looked at his hyung with pity in his eyes. He didn't want to see his cheerful hyung to be like this.. the one he's looking at right now isn't the Sunwoo hyung that he knew. “H-Hyung.. please don't be like this.”,he murmured but it was loud enough for Sunwoo to hear,“There's food at the fridge.. so if you're hungry, then go eat. You've been losing weight,hyung.” Seungjun went out of Sunwoo's apartment, Sunwoo was left alone again. Sunwoo felt tired suddenly and sighed, he was still seeing Suwoong. Those captivating eyes, his pointy nose and his plump lips. And that voice of him that is a melody to Sunwoo's ears.. he can still feel his presence in his bedroom and it somehow made Sunwoo calm. He's wondering if his trembles can be felt by Suwoong, along with the beating of his heart which was yearning for the younger male. “Suwoong,where are you?”,he murmured. He closed his eyes once again, trying to reminisce the moments that Suwoong was with him. He smiled bitterly, he was going to make those memories alive again. What's happening on him right now is a dream, he'll wake up on Suwoong clinging at him while chattering nonstop about random stuff. He'll see that smile, he'll hear his laughs, he'll be captivated by those eyes again. So in order for that to happen, he went to sleep again. He can still feel the younger male's lips on his, leaving a trace that will never leave Sunwoo's lips. The body heat of Suwoong whenever he's clinging at him, the intoxicating scent of him. In his dream, it was still clear for him. Sunwoo can clearly feel it. But everytime he's awake, it was nowhere. He can't find those and he was going crazy day by day trying to find the trace that Suwoong left, he never left the apartment trying to wait for Suwoong to come back. He would ignore his friends and family's pitiful stares at him whenever they tried to visit him. He will never come out of his shell unless Suwoong will be back. He still believes that it was a dream and the one in his dreams was the reality. “That's it,hyung! Face it! Suwoong will never be back! He won't be back and will never comeback!”,Seungjun screamed as he slammed his hands at the nearby table that startled Sunwoo. Sunwoo just looked down at the food Seungjun brought, he hadn't be eating well. He wasn't feeling right ever since Suwoong left. “S-Seungjun, that's not a nice joke.”,Sunwoo said in a shaky tone. “You're not the Sunwoo hyung I met before! You've completely changed! That Suwoong guy had broke you into pieces!”,Seungjun said as he was glaring at Sunwoo,“We're going out tonight, I want you to clear your mind and please...be back to your old self.” Sunwoo didn't protested and went with Seungjun, he knew that this friend of him had been really stubborn so no matter how many time he reject the childish giant, it will still annoy the hell out of him. But he smiled in a bitter way, it seems that everything was really black and white for him.. he can't feel anything anymore. He can't feel happiness or sadness. Seungjun took him into a lot of places but Sunwoo seems to be like the usual. “Hyung, stay here. I'll just buy something. Will be back in a jifty.”,Seungjun stated. Sunwoo was left alone in the park, sitting at a bench. He was just waiting for Seungjun then he'll be back to his apartment where he'll welcome Suwoong home. Where he'll see the younger male and will hug him really tight. Only Suwoong can make him feel alive, as if his heart was only beating for Suwoong. Exaggerated as it seems, but Sunwoo's too in love with Suwoong. “Hyung! I bought some food with me! Let's eat!”,he heard Seungjun and looked at him but his eyes widened when he saw someone really familiar. “Suwoong..”,he said which made Seungjun stop. “What?”,Seungjun asked him. “S-Suwoong..” Suwoong was at the other side of the road and Sunwoo ran to him, not noticing the red light.. he ran without hesitation and without giving any s on everything. Seungjun's eyes widened, Sunwoo saw something really bright and he saw a vehicle coming in front of him. But a pair of arms pulled him.. “S-Suwoong..”,Sunwoo smiled as Suwoong pulled him away from the road. But Sunwoo was wondering, Suwoong was glaring at him and there was an another guy with him. It made him anxious as if something bad will happen. “Suwoong.. i-it's been a long time,why aren't you home?”,he asked him. “Can you please not look for me anymore?”,Suwoong said and Sunwoo felt like his heart was stabbed a lot of times. “W-What?” “Look, I left you already. I don't love you anymore and please leave me alone.”,Suwoong blurted out as he rolled his eyes,“You're too in love with me that you haven't noticed that I already fall out of love. I don't love you like the way I did before.. that was stupid of me. Well.. now I'm happy with an another guy. A guy that was better than you, you're nothing but a worthless piece of now. Now, get out of my life Choi Sunwoo.” Before Sunwoo could reply, Suwoong already turned his back at him and clinged to the other guy. “Who was that guy,babe?”,the guy asked him. “Oh, just a weird person. Don't mind him,Daehyun.”,he heard Suwoong stated. He felt suffocated..as if he was being strangled. His sigh were starting to get blurred,he heard Seungjun calling his name but he ignored the younger male and ran away. He ran back to his safety zone, he locked his apartment from the inside and locked himself at his bedroom. He cried. He can't get Suwoong out of hid mind, he needs him. He want Suwoong to be back, everything that happened a while ago wasn't real. This isn't going to end up like that. They need to be together. He looked at the sleeping pills in his hands, he didn't even hesitated on gulping every single bit of the drug from the bottle. He wants to be with Suwoong forever.. and that only exist in his dreams. His dreams were the only thing that connects him to Suwoong. And this is the only way for that dream not to end.. he felt numb and he only wants Suwoong to be back. He closed his eyes and went to sleep. He sees Suwoong smiling at him. Sunwoo smiled. He felt alive once again which was really funny because he's dead now. ××× So here's a 1.3K+ words filled with my crappy idea. And the urge to write a boys rep fanfic cause I'm really thristy af for one especially for a SunSu ff :----( Hoping that others will too. XD Lol. 160721