"Tell me. How long has she been admitted to the hospital! What happened to her? How did she... turn into like
that?"

Soojung held onto the cup of coffee tightly, thinking of where she should start from, while Sehun waited
patiently for Soonjung to give all the answers. Joohyun sat nervously behind them, still in a shock of the
plight that Jinri is currently in. 

"Jinri got rapped, tortured and poured acid on her face by her kidnappers in Jeju Island. She was sent to the 
hospital only 2 months ago, in critical condition. That was when I found out Jinri actually had leukemia ever
since she was a kid, and suicidal tendency. She wasn't even supposed to live so long, but she managed to
survive, and from her doctors, they said she believed in the miracle that will appear in her life that she sees
you as the miracle... She believes that you are the miracle that makes her stay alive." 

Sehun stared at his feet, trying to digest what he had just heard.

"Someone called the ambulance and police after seeing Jinri lying unconsciously at one of the back alleys at
Jeju Island 3 months after she got kidnapped and tortured. They sent her back after identifying her as a Seoul
person. I am not sure if the kidnappers were arrested, that's all I know..." 

Sehun held up his hand, "Enough, I don't want to hear anymore..."

Joohyun placed her hand on Sehun's shoulder, "Hun..."

"I heard from Jinri's psychiatrist that Jinri keeps a diary, maybe you can go take a look, and help us in helping her
to recover..." Soojung said as she stood up, "And one thing, I have noticed the weird behaviour in Jinri
​since the day she transferred to our school, I am not sure if you see it, all she wants was just love."

Sehun switched on the light in Jinri's room. He had no idea that the woman who lived under the same roof as him 
was sick. He have never notice, he have never care, he only sees himself, Joohyun and his friends... What is Jinri?
Must be just an annoying girl in his life... 

He walked over to her bed and opened her drawer. The bottles of prescribed medicine with unknown labels caught
his attention. Another thing that caught his eyes was a couple of penknives that were hidden all the way into the
drawer. 

"She has leukemia and suicidal tendency..."

Has she already started cutting herself ever she lives with him? How did he notice it? He then remembered that Jinri
always long sleeves or cardigan to cover the cuts on her wrist. Sehun wants to know badly how did Jinri get leukemia?
Why did she have suicidal tendency? Why didn't her parents mention anything when they married? 

Opening the second drawer, there isn't the presence of a diary. So he went ahead to open the third drawer and he found
a pink cover book. It must be her diary. He flipped the notebook open and read the content inside. 

"Dear Diary,

I think I finally met my prince charming today. His name is Oh Sehun. He is so good looking and I could stare at his face
all day along. But then does a dying person deserved happiness?

Sign off,
Jinri"

​He moved on to the next page.

"Dear Diary,

Sehun and I got married today!! I am so excited and happy that I became Mrs Oh. I really wish I wasn't sick, so I can
live with Sehun forever :( I love him, but I can't love... So I had to make him hate me...

Sign off,
Jinri"

"Dear Diary,

It's the first day of attending new school. New environment, new friends. I didn't make any new friends... But I am used to
it... No one likes me ever since I was born, that's probably why my biological parents dump me at the rubbish chute. I was
glad that eomma and appa found me... I am grateful for that, why did they bring me home if they don't love me too... Appa
always abuse me, and eomma would lock me up, until the day when I got married, I finally got freedom... Am I that worthless?
I know people in school hates me. Sehun hates me too. Because I ruin his relationship with Joohyun. I achieved what I want.
I made Sehun hate me... so that he won't remember me when I die...he won't ever feel sad and he can finally be with Joohyun
after I leave the world. I think I am silly but I stopped taking medicine just so that I can leave this world faster. I am a burden
to Sehun, to everyone... I am sorry that I am a disappointment...

Sign off,
Jinri"

"Dear Diary,

I made a huge mistake yesterday... I slapped Joohyun... And I made Sehun super angry... He made almost the entire student
body throw things at me while tying me to the chair. I deserved it, because I slapped the girl that Sehun loves with all his life.
But I didn't expect to receive such harsh punishment... It just reminded me how appa always hit me whenever he feels
like it. Eomma didn't even try to stop him, like how no one came to help when I was being bullied, humiliated... I know I 
plan to make Sehun hate me by being such a clingy and annoying , but it sort of hurt to receive slaps and insults from him.
Why did I marry him? He makes my heart go crazy, yet I am not supposed to feel that way...

Sign off,
Jinri"

Sehun flipped to the last entry of her diary.

"Dear Diary,

I am going Jeju Island with Sehun, his friends and his girlfriend tomorrow! I am so excited. It's my first time going out of Korea,
and probably my last time too. Hope I will make fond memories :)

Sign off,
Jinri"

Unknowingly, a tear of anger dropped and stained the paper. Sehun clenched onto the diary tightly. The woman that he married,
that he lived with, been through so much yet he knows nothing. She was adopted, she was abused, she felt worthless, she has 
leukemia and suicidal tendency, she did everything just to make Sehun and everyone hates her so when she dies, no one will
shed a tear for her. A pang of guilt hit Sehun. If only he didn't chase her out of the villa that night, she wouldn't be , 
tortured, disfigured and currently now in critical condition. If only he knew everything, he would be nicer to her, he wouldn't
treat her like rubbish. He regretted everything that he had done, but it was too hate, all the damage had been done. Now the girl
who had suffered so much, turned mute and lost the will to continue live, all because of him. The person that deserved to die is him,
not Choi Jinri. 

"I am sorry Jinri..."

He made up his mind, he had to salvage whatever he had destroyed.

"I made breakfast for you," Sehun pushed the plate of English breakfast towards Jinri, but Jinri only scooted away from him and
 lowered her head under the hoodie. Sehun wanted to look at her but Jinri gave no chance as her hoodie was covering her face
completely. 

"Eat a little? You have to eat your medicine later..." 

Jinri hugged her legs tightly to her chest and continued to ignore him. Sehun let out a exasperated sigh but he is not going to give 
up so easily. 

Trying his luck again, he took out her diary from his bag and slid it across the table. Jinri took a glance and she turned away again.

"Remember your diary? I am sorry that I read it even though it's a very personal thing. I am sorry Jinri... This is all my fault... I
know you hate and you probably won't forgive me. But I will take care of you until you recover. You can ignore me but please
eat something and don't go against your own health..."

Jinri reached out for her diary and hugged it as if it was the most precious thing ever. 

"I heard from Soojung that you don't want to do the surgery after knowing that I am the donor, is it true?" 

Still no response from Jinri. Sehun waited, but Jinri remain in silence.

"You really must hate me a lot don't you..." Sehun let out a dry laugh. Slowly, he carried his backpack and left the ward disappointedly.

After Sehun left, Jinri took a look at the breakfast he made. She picked up the fork and knife and began eating the breakfast Sehun
made. She smiled, "It's the first time he made breakfast for me..."

For the next days, and weeks, Sehun visits Jinri everyday, brings her food, tells her amusing things that happened in school. He wouldn't
let her go anywhere alone, he makes sure he is always there when she goes for check-up and therapy sessions. 

"Dude, you have been rushing off after school nowadays, what's up?" Jongin asked. 

"Yah, our makenae no longer joins us for study sessions and hang-outs," Baekhyun remarked, with a frown on his face.

Sehun gave an apologetic look, "I am sorry guys I am very busy. I have to go! Bye!"

Before the boys could stop him, Sehun had already disappeared from their sight. 

"Jinri!" Sehun entered the ward happily but his smile faded when he was welcomed by an empty bed, in fact, an empty ward.

Worriedly, Sehun rushed to the reception and enquired Jinri's whereabouts but all of them had no idea that Jinri left the hospital
secretly. 

"Jinri, where are you??" 

Sehun had never felt so panic and scared in his life. He didn't want anything to happen to Jinri. He wants her to be safe. Running
around the places nearby the hospital, Sehun prayed hard that he will be able to find his wife as soon as possible. 

As if luck was on his side, he caught a familiar backview at the bakery a few streets down the hospital. She was standing outside,
admiring the cakes on display. Sehun joined her, "Jinri..."

Jinri flinched.

"Why did you come out of the hospital without telling anyone? Do you know how worried I am?" 

The girl continued to stare at the cakes while Sehun let out heavy breaths from all the searching. He did not know why Jinri was so
interested in the cakes. 

"Ahhh! Mosnter!!"

A kid who saw Jinri's face screamed out loud, hiding behind his mother. Jinri pulled the hoodie tighter and walked away. Sehun
ran after her. 

They arrived at a park. Jinri was tired from walking too much, so she sat on the bench, with Sehun following her. 

"You are not a monster, don't let the kid's words get into you..." Sehun decided to break the ice, "You will recover..."

Jinri finally raised her head slowly, making eye contact with Sehun after weeks later. Sehun caught her teary eyes and he swore, his
heart hurt a little. He didn't know why he had such reaction towards Jinri. He used to hate her, bu