Heechul’s POV

It’s been days…
Well not really, it’s just the 3 weeks since I found out…
Whenever I sleep, I remember sweet memories with me and Hangeng in it…
Leeteuk kept pestering me about this and now I’m tired of avoiding this topic…
“Why don’t you just confront him already? I mean, you already know the truth right? So why avoid him?”
Leeteuk said was true but I just couldn’t face him yet…
I’m not ready…
“It’s not that easy you know!” is all I can reply back
But I think he noticed
“Yes it is! Go straight to him and ask him to tell you the whole story.”
“But I know the whole story.”
“Here we go again”
I’ve said this many times to Leeteuk whenever we go to this topic
“I know that I loved him and I know that he loved me too, infact, he still loves me now…”
Before I knew it, I was crying my heart out
I really don’t get it at all
Whenever I talk about Hangeng-shi, my heart hurts
I feel like I wanna run to him and be with him forever
But I know I cant
I know that he’s waiting for the old Heechul to return not the new one who don’t remember him at all…
I told Leeteuk to go home because I wanna sleep
But when I woke up, I was in his car
“Yah! Jungsoo ah!!! Where the heck are you taking me?” I pulled his necktie to choke him
“I’m taking you to Hangeng-shi’s office”
He looked at me straight in the eyes as the car stopped
Thank God it’s traffic
“Heechul-ah, you’ve been hiding in your room for days but all you do is think of him. Don’t you think it’s about time you face him? I mean, there wont be any harm done right?”
I released his necktie and just crossed by arms
Fine… I give up
Besides I have something I want to tell me straight to his face
When we arrived at the office, Leeteuk opened the door for me and when I thought he was coming with me I was wrong. He suddenly drove off on his own.
I went in the building and the receptionist asked for my i.d I thought I didn’t bring it because I couldn’t feel my wallet but thanks to Leeteuk, he slipped my drivers license in my pocket
They let me go up to his office, I kept repeating what I wanted to say to him throughout the whole trip in the elevator
Why am I that nervous?
Ok here’s my plan, go up, tell him what I wanna say and then go out
Simple as that
I knocked
There was no answer
I knocked again
“yes?”
He answered
I was so nervous I couldn’t speak
Then the door suddenly opened
“Yes? –“
The both of us were shocked
“h-heechul –shi?”
I blushed hearing my name said by him
What’s happening to me?!
“Hangeng-shi”
I stuttered and I think he heard me
“I wanna talk to you in private, can I ? ”
He just smiled and let me in to his office
“I wonder where my secretary is, he usually stays in his desk at all times. So Heechul – shi, what do you want to talk to me about?” he asked as he was following behind me
This office is familiar, I don’t know why but I know this atmosphere. I walked around the office while he was waiting for to speak. As I passed his desk, I saw our picture together. I took a look at it and looked at him in surprise. He just smiled and leaned on the wall. In the picture, I was hugging him tightly and I know it was a self taken because I noticed that Hangeng was holding the camera. We were lying on the bed and I seem to know the bed, was that our bed? It looked kinda old so I think this was taken in China. Was our love that great? That even my parents got involve?
“Hangeng shi…”
Here it goes
“heechul – ah!”
He cut me off before I could say anything
“I have a meeting, if you don’t mind maybe we can continue this tomorrow?”
What the hell?
“NO! I’ll wait! Even if I have to wait all night!”
“Are you sure?”
He started fixing his things and went straight out of his office
I guess he really does have a meeting

Hangeng’s POV

Cant really say that I was surprise to see him, I knew someday we’ll talk again. I know Heechul, he wont let anything rest until he gets what he wants. And I think talking to me straight is something he wants. This is weird, I know something is up… I cancelled all my meetings and pushed it later tonight.
When I entered my office, I saw him sitting on my desk while looking at his nails. I found out that I was special to him because of his nails. Funny but true. He never lets anyone touch his hands or even his nails. The first time I held his hands, he slapped me in the face he just said “just do my nails.” I was really weirded out but I found out I was the first one to do his nails even as a friend that time.
“I thought you had a meeting?” he asked still not looking at me
“I cancelled it. You wanted to talk right? Besides, they weren’t that important.”
I guess I took him by surprise because he stopped what he was doing and looked at me
I cupped his face
He just stared at me
“Tell me…” he suddenly said
I saw those sad looking eyes again
“Tell me why you waited for me? You.. and I were lovers but I forgot you, why did you wait? Why still love me now?”he started crying halfway “You know that I might not return to the old Heechul you want me to be… Why still love me? I don’t deserve you yet you stayed”
I stepped closer but I noticed he stepped back so I pulled him to me. He began to cry harder, I could feel those warm tears against my chest. “I’m not worth it so why wait and get hurt?” he asked between his sobs. I just replied “because I cant live without you. Even if I get hurt, it’s better than without you beside me.”
He tightened his grip of my shirt and stayed silent. We were like that for a few minutes then I noticed he fell asleep. He always do this in the past, he hugs me but then I find out he already fell asleep while standing. I guess this is one of the things I started to love about him. One of his many charms.
I layed him down my couch in the office for him to sleep. I continued my work and went to my meetings, I was amazed at how deeply he slept. My guess was he haven’t slept much since he found out. I check up on him once in a while and made sure my secretary doenst enter my office. I don’t want to let anyone know that Heechul is in there. I have my reasons.

Wait… are we back together?


No one’s pov

Hangeng was thinking deeply while looking out his window when he heard some noise coming from Heechul
Heechul woke up shocked and realizing that he fell asleep
“Hannie! What happened?” he shot a shocked looked at Hangeng
“Hee… are we back together?”
That caught Heechul off guard “uh.. What do you mean?”
“I mean, are we lovers again.” Hangeng was being serious but Heechul started getting teary eyed for some reason and that scared Hangeng
“You know if you don’t want to then it’s ok…” Heechul started crying
“no!! I mean.. will you take me back?” Heechul stopped crying and looked at Hangeng with curiosity “What do you mean? I’m the one who will be causing you trouble. I mean, I don’t know if I will remember you eventually but I also don’t want you to leave me. Am I being selfish?”
“You were much more selfish in the past like saying “you cant talk to any guy except me” or “Even if I die, don’t love anyone.. Stay loyal to me” remember?”
Heechul glared at Hangeng for saying such things to him
“Are you saying that on purpose? You know that I don’t remember it yet you compare me with my past!”
They both stayed silent until Heechul kissed Hangeng
“please wait for me… don’t give up because I wont”