I havent left my room for days...

what day is it now? I cant remember...

I havent even slept yet...

I tried to but whenever I close my eyes and tried to sleep, my memories from the accident comes back...

I'm scared...

I dont want to be alone...

Yesterday...

I finally got the courage to call Hangeng-shi...

I dont know why but I want to see him badly...

He suffered enough because of me...

I want to apologize....


meanwhile at Heechul's father's office




The two of us shook hands and sat
'How are you? I heard from Heechul you left him' he asked me seriously
I was taken by surprise
I didnt expect that the news would travel to him that fast
'I know you truly love him so why give up now?'
Mr. Kim was the only one who supported me in whatever decision I made that concerned Heechul
He trusted Mr. Kim more than his own father
'I still love him' was the only thing that came out from my mouth
Even though I came from a very difficult family, whenever I was with Heechul I was happy.
Truly happy
I found love again after meeting Heechul
'So why give up?'
I knew that Mr. Kim wouldnt stop asking me until I give him a reasonable answer
'I guess...'
Should I tell him?
Should I tell him that I'm losing hope?
'He still loves you, you know...'
Mr. Kim hugged me and patted my head
'He still loves you... He may not know it now but I'm sure he still loves you deep inside. You two have been through so much, your love for each other wouldnt be that easy to break.'
Mr. Kim is right
I still love him, I shouldnt give up
As long as I'm still breathing, there's still a chance to make him remember and love me again
'Mr. Kim, I'
He cut me off
'When did you start calling me Mr. Kim again?'
He looked amused...
He likes bullying me because he knows I'm still not in a good relationship with Mrs. Kim
'Hangeng-shi, what did I tell you to call me?'
'uh.. dad...'
'Good, so what were you going to say?'
Is he a child?
When he first told me to call him dad, it was when I bid goodbye to Heechul's parents
Mr. Kim told me to call him dad even though we wouldnt see each other again
I didnt know that he still remembered it
'uh.. Dad... what should I do?'
I trust him
I need to trust him
'Well son... wait... just wait...'
What is he talking about?
'You should wait... wait for him... If you could wait for more than 2 years, then I think you can wait for a few more days. Right?'






dreaming

Where am I?
What is this?

What is that?
I know this song
It seems that I'm in a house
in a living room
with...

HANGENG

….

Am I in China?

oh... a dream....

woah! I cant control my body

I'm walking to the kitchen when Hangeng called me
He had a book in his hand
'Hee, here.' he smiled at me sweetly
'What is this?' woah! I cant control myself
Hangeng hugged me
'You wanted to learn Chinese right? So I found a good Korean-Chinese dictionary for you.'
'Hannie.. I told you that I'm gonna find it on my own'
'But you're busy with work... besides I had too much free time...'
I pouted

Why was I pouting?

Everything was in a blur

then I found myself on my bed with Hangeng beside me

'yah! Hannie!'
'hmm?' he was reading some papers
I cant see it clearly
'Hannie, do you wanna learn a Korean song?'
He looked at me and one of his eyebrow raised
'I just heard it on the radio, I really like this song'
he just looked at me like he isnt interested
I hit him on his arm
he screamed in pain
'Yah KIM HEECHUL! How could you punch that hard? What did you do when you were younger? Boxing?' he stood up and glared at me
I seem to know his weakness, I got teary eyed and he suddenly apologized to me
Our situation turned upside down
He was the one apologizing
'So do you wanna learn or not?' I crossed my arms while glaring at him with my already red eyes
he sighed 'Do I have a choice?'
I jump to his lap and sang the song

While I was singing Hangeng closed his eyes and smiled
He rested his head on my shoulder

After I sang
he told me to continue singing
'Hannie! I'm running out of lyrics here!'
He laughed at me like I said something crazy
'I thought you like this song? How come you dont know the lyrics?'
I answered him after giving it some thought
'I like it but I didnt memorized the whole song, so deal with it!'
He hugged me tightly and kissed me
He whispered to my ear
'so what does it mean?'

He laughed so hard he was kneeling on the floor
'huh? Hannie!!!'
he kept laughing as he was trying to speak
'Hee.. Hee.. hahahah This.. this song isnt for you!'
I looked pissed
'Hannie! What did you say?!'
I kicked him
'hahahahahaha Hee... this song is too EMO for you!'
'WHAT?!'
He finally stopped laughing and sat on the floor
'Hee, this song is a sad song... his doesnt suit you'
'but... but Hannie...'
I was pouting and knelt beside Hangeng
'Hee ah'
He pulled my head to rest on his shoulder
'Hee, choose another song'
'But I like it'
there was silence surrounding the room
Then Hangeng stood up and helped me
'Fine! Teach me the song! I give up!'
'YEY'
I hugged him and pulled him to the couch and started teaching him the song
'so the first line is what if geudehga nal'
'what if geu.. geude..'

The last scene I saw was we were happily learning the song...

then

Heechul


'huh?'

Heechul!

'huh? Who is it?'

YAH HEECHUL AH!

I woke up!

'YAH Heechul ah! Why were you crying in your sleep? Bad dream?'
'huh? Uhm.. no.. it was actually a good dream?'
why was I crying?