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Hello my lovely subscribers , its been a long time since I have updated or even gotten in this website and I know I need to continue this story and finish it but ever since my Anxiety and Depression became stronger since last year. Im afriad I has lost interest in every day things even to what I most love kpop and writting fanfics but its been a hard time for me every day. some days I dont even want to get out of bed because of my depression or do anything and wanting to end my life . to make things worst I have been having anger issues and change in my attitude and emotions along with it. I hold everything to myself. I did get help last year and told Phychologist about my intense emotions/attitude and she looked at me and said "You don't have bipolar disorder". not bothered to have something done to see if its true. she just told me I was "Spoiled" and all I needed was a slap. I got so mad and stop going. My Counselor knew about this and asked me some questions. turns out I have "Borderline Personality Disorder". I was glad I knew what I had but sadly I need a Phychologist to Diagnosis me and get medication but that didnt happen. no one knows and If I do go back I know my family wont believe me. they already  make fun of my depression/Anxiety and my Anxiety and panick attacks. 

this are some stuff that has been going on since last year. I know not all of you will read this or even care but I just needed to get this out and I hate talking about myself but I know I need to update but no motivation I have had to write any of my stories and I try but i can't. 

I won't  be sure when I will update but I hope I do and make you guys like the chapter. I feel so guilty leaving you guys a long time without any fics but i will one day 

Im deeply sorry for just making you guys think im going to update but its a note but i will update one day.  I know Im late but Merry Chrismas or if you dont celebrate it (like me) hope you guys had a nice week. Happy new year guys 

Love you all <3

Llama_93

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ephemeral24 2411 streak #1
Chapter 4: hi! im saddened to hear what you're going thru right now... you don't have to feel pressured abt writing an update when you don't have any motivation to do it, you can take as much time as you want :) what's important now is you well being

maybe it's time to reawaken your old habits that made you happy before which you've somewhat neglected? or distract yourself with stuff that surely lift up your mood... your condition isnt a joke and im sorry that people around you aren't being serious abt it... we can't do anything abt that but you can do something personally... im not sure how self help would be but maybe you can try that? read materials abt overcoming such, talk to other people abt it... you can get over this!!! FIGHTING!
su-holdup #2
Chapter 4: I'm so sorry to hear about your condition right now.. Don't worry about the story, your recovery is much more important. And your health. I know the feelings all too well and I hope you will stay strong, because even when you dont feel like living another day, there is always a chance that one day, you'll find something, to bring you out slowly out of your hole of depression. /hugs you tightly/ You can do this!! I believe in you! Take care of yourself, eat your meals :), and sleep sufficiently. Maybe try and pick up a hobby, I know your interest in things are at its lowest during depression but trying wont harm you. And, it's something I always say, dont ever self harm. It is not the way or the solution, ever. It might look appealing to you then but later on in life and you look back on it, was it really? I hope you can stay strong and battle this depression well, its never easy I know, and I hope you can remember that we're glad you are alive~
SuhoSandi #3
Chapter 3: Omo Yeollie how can u do this to your bestfri? Plz be hero for our little Jun, Yifan... Wonder how will their schooldays be like? I think my KrisHo start to sail heee...waiting your update, authornim... Just ignore abt some harsh words from others, Fighting!
mayday16 #4
Joonmyeon should report it to the police. I hope yifan wouldnt do sth stupid
Anw, good story here :)))))))))
Thabk you for writting this :)))))
siabruh #5
Chapter 3: Ahh, don't listen to those mean people, you're the only one that knows yourself better than anyone else does and it's your choice to believe their comments or not. You don't have to look for acceptance bc as long as you accept yourself, then that's all that matters. ❤❤❤ if you ever need to talk to someone then just send me a message and I'll b happy to listen! :) (I accept you also lol) and this story is rlly good too!! :))
wonkyulegs #6
Chapter 3: Woa chanyeol is such a jerk zzzzz if joon listen to what yifan said about chanyeol all of this wouldnt happen to joon huhuhu ;;;; but then again love is blind -_-"
aquatic_guardian #7
update please !! i love you :*
ephemeral24 2411 streak #8
Chapter 2: why am i so suspicious of Chanyeol?
like I can't bring myself to trust him completely despite Jun liking him and all :)))
and srsly, i hope Jun will notice Yifan's efforts, like he genuinely cares and worries for Jun but since he's got all eyes on Yeol, he's missing all that... UGH
reaksmey #9
Chapter 2: CAN'T WAIT!!! please update soon Author-nim... this story got me already~~~
TooFabulous #10
Chapter 2: Omg I am so excited for the updates. Kris is so cute here and chanyeol is such a dork !! Please update.
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