It was a tragic night for me, I am dying. But then I remember I have Chanyeol's number. I told my eomma if I can have my phone before I get operated. She handed me my phone and I started calling Chanyeol oppa. It was ringing. "Annyeong?" someone in a deep voice yet so calming said. I knew it was Chanyeol, I always knew his voice, it was a lullaby to my ears. 

This is my death wish to hear his voice. "Chanyeol o-oppa?" I stuttered because tears started to fall into my pillow. "너 울고 있니?" he said, his voice was in a panic. "Sorry Oppa, I can't speak Korean" I said while sniffing, my tears are still flowing down to my cheeks. "Oh, uhm are you an EXO-L? How did you know my number?" His voice, so angelic, I can barely hear other noises than his voice. I can't even hear the sound of the machine beside me. "Yes oppa, I'm an EXO-L. I just want to say something to you and to the other members, are you with them?" I said then I slowly sit on my bed even if I'm feeling weak right now, I need to be strong. I want to see them, I want to see EXO. 

"Yes you're so lucky I'm with them right now, we actually have a concert but its fine. Say it, babygirl" Oh god, that babygirl gave me life. "제발 준비하. YOU WILL GO ON STAGE IN TEN MINUTES!" I heard someone shouted, I think it's their manager. "EXO, I know you can hear me. I just want to say thank you for inspiring me for the past 3 years of my life. I am very thankful that I met you and I became an EXO-L, but in those years, I never saw you in person performing on stage. If my operation got successful, I just want one thing. I want to see you all. I hope you do well on stage later. I love you all oppa-s" I heard whispers everywhere. 

Then someone said "You'll be operated later?!" He was shocked, I know its Kyungsoo. "Yes oppa" Tears started to fall again and again. "Please be strong for us, for your friends, for your family and for yourself, you will see us after your successful operation. Promise that to us?" It was Suho, I was touched. "O-o-oppa" I cried harder because of what he said. "Just promise that you will have a successful operation?" It was Kai. "Y-yes oppa, I promise" I said then I let out a deep sigh. I will be strong for them. Suho-oppa is right. I will save money for me to see them on stage. "Don't hang up yet. We prepared something" Lay said, I heard strings of guitar being plucked. Are they singing for me? Oh my god. It was their song Promise. I never thought this would happen, am I in a dream? Please don't wake me up.

"Despite my clumsiness, you still like me no matter what

I will devote myself to you."

They sang those lyrics in english, and that made me cry so hard. I will never regret being in love with EXO. Being an EXO-L is hard but it was fun. Yes "was". But even in my other life. I will remain an EXO-L. While they are singing, all the videos I saw played back on my mind. I don't want to die without seeing them on stage.

"What is your name?" it was Chen-oppa. "I am Sash, oppa" I said while crying. My tears won't stop. This tears are full of happiness yet they still drop the sadness because of the thought that I will die, I will never see them.

"Sash, be strong. You can do it" It was Xiumin-oppa

"Just please promise us that we will see you on our concert" It was Sehun-oppa

"Promise us that we will see you smile infront of us" It was Baekhyun-oppa

"Yes oppa, I promise you." I said, then my mom called me. "Sash! Your operation time will be on for 5 minutes" I heard my eomma sniffing. She was crying

"It that your eomma? Can I talk to her?" Suho said. I was so confused but then I still called my mother.

"Eomma! You know Suho-oppa right?" I asked her. "Yes, baby. Why?" She asked back. "He wanted to talk to you" I said then I gave her my phone. The nurse came in, telling my mother that I should be in the operating room right now. My mother agreed with the nurse, then the other nurses helped her to get me to the operating room.

Minutes have passed, I can't feel anything. Everything on my body went numb. I slowly closed my eyes as a tear came down to my cheek.

1 hour.

2 hours.

And so on.

I can see my body on the operating bed. What are they doing with my body? I see blood everywhere. They can't see me? Am I a ghosts?! AM I ALREADY DEAD!? IT CANT BE! I PROMISED THEM I WILL STILL LIVE! NO! I closed my eyes hoping that I will get back to my body. How is this even possible!?

1 day.

2 days.

3 days...No response

1 week.

1 week and a day. I can feel my thumb moving. I can hear my mother crying. Am I alive? Was it successful?

"SASH! FINALLY!" My mother hugged me, I hugged her back.

I started to cry. The first thing that came into my mind was seeing EXO.

"Eomma. EXO I--I" My mom hushed me. I can move but I can barely talk.

"Shhhh. I have to give you something, sweety" My mother got an envelope from her bag. I want to ask her what is it. But I have a hard time when it comes to talking. I'm not fully recovered.

I opened the enveloped the moment she handed it to me. My eyes become wide. I started to cry again. You know what is it? It was two plane ticket to Korea. A VIP Ticket which "EXO" was written into it. An ID with "backstage pass" written. And a letter. It was written in english.

"Annyeong Sash! When you can read this it means you had a successfull operation. Thank you for keeping your promise. We will keep ours too. You want to see us, right? I talked to your mother so she can go with you here in Korea for a week. We will bond, we will catch up. I hope to see you infront of us while we're on stage on 3 days! Sarang hae!" And the letter was from Suho.

"Eomma, h-how about my clothes?" I asked my mother.

"There" She pointed the rack beside me. There are bags, 5 huge bags to be exact. This is so gonna happen! I can't believe it! Thank God for giving me another life! The day after I woke up, we went to the airport while I'm still on the wheelchair. This is it! I never thought I will be this lucky fangirl. After the storm, I finally felt the rainbow.

After 3 days...

After they got on stage, Baekhyun spoke.

"우리는 성공적인 수술던 친구를 가지고 있다." I can't understand them. But all of them are looking at me, the fans started to look at me too, the camera man focused his camera on me. This is so embarrasing, I can feel my cheeks, they are burning.

"Thank you for keeping your promise, Sash. Here's a song for you" They started to sing Peter Pan, I know my eomma told them it was my favorite song.

"I'm going to look for you Tinker bell that the memories sent Neverland that followed through

Although I'm lacking, I'm running to my you that I loved so much"