I drove by all the places we used to hang out getting wasted

I thought about our last kiss, how it felt, the way you taste it

And even though your friends tell me you're doing fine.
 
*

"Yoong~!"

"Ok, Ok... Wait up!"

"Palli! The line's still short for the ferris wheel.

"Alright, Let's go..." I held her hand and she pulled me towards the line.

We rode the ferris wheel and such a coincidence because when we stopped on the top, it is when the sun also sets.

"Yoong?" she called, resting her head on my shoulder.

"Hmm?"

"You love me, right?"

"Of course, I do.Why?"

"You're willing to do anything for me, right?"

"Yes. Anything, Jessica. Why? You're making me worried."

"Nothing... Hehe~~" She pinched my cheeks.

"I love you so much, Yoongie. Always remember that, No matter what happens."

"I love you too, Jessica Jung... I will always love you."

And with those words, I slowly leaned in to capture her lips.

***

Are you somewhere feeling lonely even though he's right beside you.

When he says those words that hurt you, do you read the ones i wrote you.

Sometimes I start to wonder was it just a lie.

If what we hade was real how could you be fine...

*

Jessica Jung reveals her relationship with Tyler Kwon.

"Are you happy, Sica?"

"Can you hear me?"

"Can you see how broken I am?"

"Would you care to explain?"

"Why can't you tell me?"

"You said you love me..."

"Am I really just nothing to you now?"

I close my eyes and let our memories flash back through my mind.

Her smiles told me she's happy... but now I don't know.

Her hugs told me she cares... but now I don't know.

Her kisses... it felt so real...

But now? I don't even know if it is.

"Did you really just played with my feelings?"

...

"Yoong, open up please..." I heard Fany unnie shouting.

"Unnie... I'm fine... I just need to sleep."

"You need to eat, Yoong. We have lots of schedule..."

"I'm okay, Unnie..."

"Yoona... I don't know what to say but you need to move on. It's not good for you.. "

I opened the door and Fany unnie immediately hugged me when she saw how messed I am.

"I love her so so much, unnie. Why does she have to do this?"

"She have a reason, Yoong. I don't know too but please, we also care for you. We need you, too. Please, don't be like this."

I continued to cry on her shoulder until I felt my eyes getting heavier.

***

I remember the day you told me you were leaving...

I remember the make up running down your face...

And the dreams you left behind, you didn't need them...

Like every single wish we ever made...

*

I was patiently waiting for her at our favorite restaurant.

She said she have something important to say.

Well, I have one too.

I waited patiently even if I'm worried because she was never late.

"Yoona..."

Oh here she is but wait? 'Yoona' ?

"Sica..." I smiled and stood up to hugged her but she gently pushed me away.

I can sense that something wrong is going on.

We sat down and she just stared at the table.

I held her hand on the table before speaking.

"Sica, is there something wrong?"

"..."

"Baby?"

She pulled her hand away and looked up at me with teary eyes.

"Yoona, let's break up..."

"What?"

"Let's end this."

"No, Jessica... No, we're not ending anything. Tell me what's wrong. Tell me did I do something wrong?"

"No, Yoona. It's me. I-I just played w-with your feelings. I'm engaged now... And I-I'm leaving soon... I'm sorry.... I have to go..."

She wiped her tears as she stood up.

I stood up and hugged her.

"Sica, please... Don't do this. I love you. No... you're not leaving. Jessica... please..."

She pushed me again and shook her head.

"I'm sorry, Yoong... He's waiting for me..."

I dropped on my knees as I stared at the diamond ring I was holding...

You said you wanted to be with me forever...

You said you wanted a family with me...

You said... you said... you won't leave me...

***

I wish that I could wake up with amnesia

And forget about these stupid little things

Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you

And the memories I never can escape

'Cause I'm not fine at all

***

The pictures that you sent me they're still living in my phone

I'll admit I like to see them, I'll admit I feel alone

And all my friends keep asking why I'm not around

*

"You're looking at her again..." I heard Taeyeon unnie said.

I looked up from my phone and faintly smiled at her.

"I miss her unnie..." I said, tears b in my eyes.

"I'm sorry, Yoong, I can't do anything..." Taeyeon unnie gently rubbed my arm.

"Do.. d-do you know where i-is she?" I asked.

"I'm sorry. I don't know..."

"B-but... but she said, she's still contacting some of us."

"Yoong..."

"You know, right?" Taeyeon unnie nodded.

*

It hurts to know you're happy and it hurts that you've moved on

It's hard to hear your name when I haven't seen you in so long

It's like we never happened was it just a lie

If what we have was real, how could you be fine?

'Cause I'm not fine at all

*

"I promise, I won't do anything. J-just tell me where she is... and how is she..." I finally let the tears flow down my cheeks.

She wiped my tears as she started to speak.

"She's in Jeju, now. With her sister. Tyler? He's here in Seoul. She said she's fine."

"Did... did she ever mention me?"

"I tried to open up a topic about you but she suddenly talks about Tyler."

"Unnie, why did she have to leave me? us? She said she loves me..."

Then suddenly her phone rang...

"Jessica?"

Jessica... Sooyeon-ah...

"Taengoo~" unnie put it in a lod speaker so I can hear her voice.

"Why did you call?"

"I can't call Tyler. Can you call him for me?" Jessica asked.

I silently sobbed, afraid that Jessica might hear me.

"Oh... sure." Taeyeon glanced at me before looking away.

"Have you talked to Yoona?" Taeyeon unnie said.

... I waited for her answer... hoping she wouldn't change the topic...

"Call Tylieee now. Tell him to skype me up and I miss him~~"

And that's when I sobbed hard. I don't care if she'll hear me.

It just hurts... so much...

"Y-yoona?"

*

If the day I woke up with you right beside me,

Like all of these was just some twisted dream.

I'll hold you closer than I ever did before,

And you'll never slip away.

And you'll never here me say...

"I remember the day you told me you were leaving...
I remember the make up running down your face...
And the dreams you left behind, you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made..." I sang as I cry my heart out.

Why wouldn't I?

I just saw you...

Yes, I did.

I saw you walking with him. And you look so... so happy...

I went to the rooftop of Soshi's dorm.

It's my favorite place. A place where I can finally be alone and feel the wind touching my face.

A place where I can reminisce our moments. A place where I can cry and no one will care.

"I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about these stupid little things
Like the wa---"

"The way it felt to fall asleep next to you...
And the memories I never can escape." I heard your voice.

Am I dreaming?

"'Cause I'm not fine at all..."

I turned around and saw you. Tears rolling down your cheeks.

"Really not fine at all... Tell me this is just a dream. 'Cause I'm really not fine at all..." You finished the song and stared at me.

I don't know if I should be mad or should I just hug you.

You stared at me with those eyes. As if you were so broken just as I am.

"Yoongie... I...."

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