When he made his decision clear, when he finally could have reached out his hand and grabbed Hoseok's heart he didn't have the chance to say goodbye to him he couldn't even say sorry.

His emotions were about the hit him hard he knew he had to do something.

He just moved his feet to direction of Hoseok's house. He slowly approached and stopped in front of the door. He clenched his fists tightly, nails digging into his palms. He lifted his fist and after he waited a second he knocked door lightly and then started to hit intensely. After a minute he just stopped, closed his eyes and leaned his head on door. He untied his fists and dropped his arms near to his body. He just set his tears free. No this couldn't be happening. Hoseok couldn't leave without seeing him one last time no he couldn't leave him in here alone. He has to say sorry to Hoseok. He has to look into his eyes, grab his hand while he is saying he loves him, he worships him, he can't live without him. His mind went blank. He was feeling so numb.

Suddenly door handle was turned and he lost his balance, stepped up back and watched while door was swung. He looked with shocked expression on his face to the person who was holding the door handle.