Hyung,

Today again, I went see Namjoon hyung at yours, at last, rather his appartement now. I have tried to get him out of this bedroom.... Again. But, he continues to hang.

29/11/2015

Hyung,

I went to visit Suga hyung. I was again lying on the table of his kitchen, surrounder by some bottles. I wanted help him, but he again hit me.. I don't know what to do of other than to return the knocks until he calm down and cries.

30/11/2015

Hyung,

The doctors say that Hoseok hyung made a relapse. They locked him this time. He write your name on all the things which passes him under the hand. There was nothing I could do. He told me, that yesterday evening, you came to visit him. I almost cried, but I held on.

1/12/2015

Hyung,

Jimin hyung worries me. He asked me , how it's between Namjoon hyung and you. I didn't want hurting him, so I said that everything is alright. He answered that he will come one time, for see you. I'm not rather strong to impose him this reality, excuse-me

2/12/2015

Hyung,

V hyung gets worse and worse. He takes life as it comes you know. He have enormously lost weight, I think he makes him vomit. I don't count any more the number of times or it felt faint. And before, I found him the phone stuck at the hear. I understood who he was calling when I heard «Hyung, I need you»

3/12/2015

Hyung,

I miss you you know ? I was made in the idea that you were leaving for a best place. So I continue to laugh, to smile and to live, like you would have wished if you had been still present. I remember that you liked to take videos et photos of everything and anything. So, I make this at your place. And time to time, I remember of these moments where it was us that you had in your viewfinder. I would have liked that the others made as me, to accept et continue to live, never by forgetting to remember from time to time. Because now, you're unfortunately more than a piece of lives in my memory

4/12/2015