you are here again. in front of the music room in your school

watch him again, from the window, because you don't wanna bother him

you've been doing thisfor a long time. what else that can make you doing this?

it's love. you love him. because he is being him. because you love everything about him. especially when he is on his guitar like this..

 

"go inside and greet him" Sulli says that without take her eyes off of her book

"I can't" you sit beside her

"why? you've been admiring him for years you know. why can't you just let him know?"

"just let me admire him from a distance" you give your smile to her and then leave her

 

"I doubt your love for him" Sulli suddenly says that when the school-break-bell is ringing

"eh? does my feeling seem to be a joke?"

"I'm just wondering, you love him as himself or when he is on his guitar only? because you keep watching him from the outside of music room"

"hahaha. I love him as himself. and about his goodness in playing a guitar, It's just an additional value  for me"

"but he doesn't talk too much. everybody knows it"

"it isn't a big deal I'm dealing with"

"aish. okay okay" Sulli surrender

you are smiling brightly when Sulli has no words for you.

 

you walk to library because you wanna return the book that you borrowed last 2 days. and again, you pass the music toom and see him playinh guitar. you are surprised when suddenly he stops playing and start to look at you. and you continue your steps to library

"hey you" he shouts your name

"yes?"

"can you please stop looking at me when I'm playing guitar?" you know that he is serious when you look at his face

"why? is that a wrong thing, Lee Sungmin?"

"yes, it is"

"tell me why"

"because you bother me with your stare. I know that I was being looked at when I play guitar. I can't cpncentrate anymore. so please, stop doing it and stay away from me"

this is the first time you hear him talking that much. and you are pretty surprised with his words

"okay, I'm sorry" you leave him without looking back

 

the next day, you are trying not to pass the music room.  eventhough your class is near it, you keep walking the different way. you are avoiding the guitar's sound that is being played by him. you are afraid that you will bother him again. and you keep doing that thing for days

 

"are you going to get Sungmin out of your mind?" Sulli asks you when you both are having lunch

"nope, why?"

"I realize that you stop looking him in music room"

"is that too obvious?"
"yep"

"he said that I bother him everytime I'm watching him from the outside. because he knew that he was being looked at by someone and he couldnt concentrate anymore" you sigh

"he is sooooooooo mean"

"aaah. he isn't that mean" you continue eating your lunch

 

you are searching a book in the library. after 5minutes, you found that book. when yyou are heading to library's officer, you see Sungmin is writing something on his book. you freeze for a moment

he saw you. and gave you his cold stare without smiling. and you immediately leave the library

 

you are listening to your iPod while you are walking to the canteen before you go home. you buy a cold drink because it's hot outside.

when you turn your body back, you find Sungmin is playing guitar in corridor that you use to go home. he saw you again and stops playing. you run immediately to your school garden

 

"am I too obvious watching him playing guitar untilhe got mad at me? did I do a wrong thing?" you are talking to yourself while feeding fishes on the pond

you are into your mind. only the cold drink, fishes, and sound of the wind accompany you

"yes you are"

you are surprised that suddenly someone answers your question

"sorry. I really am, Lee" you can only see the ground when Sungmin sit beside you

"aren't you wondering why I don't like you watching me playing guitar?"

"because you can't concentrate anymore"

"yes. because I can't concentrate if you are around me" he looks at you

"sorry....."

you both are silent

"if you are around me, I cant concentrate anymore. how come I gain any concentration if my inspriration is around me?"

you start looking at him

"I don't understand"

"you are my inspiration. and you will always be. you are my inspiration for all of the song I have made" he holds your hands

you can't say anything. you think that this is only your imagination

"I have been admiring you since our junior high school time. and my feeling becomes more and more everyday" he looks at you with his calm eyes

"Sungmin..... I.. I..."

"I love you. would you be mine?

you look at him eyes. try to find any of lieness. and you didn't find it

"yes.. Lee. I love you too"

he smiles immediately and hug you tight

and this is how your story about admiring someone from a distance ends. you thanked him and God that he asked you to stay away. if he didn't ask you before, this is won't be happened :)