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Youngji's p.o.v

A week has passed since that day, and I've tried my best to keep myself as much busy as I could. I didn't want to keep on thinking about unnecessary stuff like.. Ehem I don't know, maybe love... No that was not it. That sure is not it.

Just yesterday, I was offered to be a special MC for the music program Inkigayo, the one Jackson is on (is he still on that show guys? i think no :/). Alongside with me will be another special MC, that's what I've been told. Though I don't know who it'll be. Well, I'll wait and see.

Inkigayo, Backstage

As I was reading my MC papers, I kept on talking with Jackson. It's been a while since I last saw him and it was kinda refreshing to talk to him again. It reminded me of the times when I was still a rookie, even though I'm still considered one. But that time I was still new to the industry and everything amazed me so much. Everything was still fresh and new. It is still now, it's just that... It's not as bright as before.

since KARA no longer exist...

I slapped my cheek at the thought of it. I had decided to move on for the better. Why couldn't I stop thinking about it? Even now it still hurts. I love them so much and I respect their decisions but I wanted us to last longer than that. I didn't want to wake up from this dream. It was too beautiful.

Just when I was having these sad thoughts, I heard a knock on the door. I thought it was Jackson since he went to the bathroom, but I was surprised to see that it was Hanbin from iKon. I wish I was just surprised but sadly I remembered that he was there the day I... cried in front of all of them. oh no, I could feel my face blushing and I tried way too hard to put on a fake smile. 

-Hi Hanbin-aa how are you? i said trying to act natural as much as possible

-Oh anyeong Youngji noona, I'm fine and you? he said looking at me a little bit... strangely?

-Yes I'm fine thank you...Is it possible that you are the other special MC? i said now realising why he was here

-Yes I am.. Are you also a special MC? he asked with a cute smile on his face

I couldn't resist and I chuckled at the thought of his face. He was a cute dongsaeng that I was glad my brother knew. Hanbin realising that I laughed at him suddenly looked a little bit embarassed and looked right into my eyes. He half-smiled and suddenly said:

-I'm glad you're finally laughing for real this time noona. Truth is, I was a little worried when I suddenly saw you that it might be awkward for us. But I wanted to say that you don't need to worry, obviously we won't tell anyone and that if you need anything noona, just saying that you can always talk to me...

When he said that I was really surprised and began to tear up. To hide the tears, I began to laugh and showed my alligator smile to Hanbin. Hanbin suddenly looked at the ground shyly and his whole face was red. I felt bad for him and tried to make up by saying

-I'm very sorry for laughing Hanbin-ah, it's just I'm very touched and I couldnt even imagine you were this sweet. Thank you