내 가족 내 천사 내 사랑
( My Family, My Angel, My Love )

cr; to the Owner

Flash forward Hyungwon and Wonho were taking the world on together.. They are doing fine traveling the world from Paris to London and all the other romantic places in the world.. Even tho they had their fights here and there about girls staring at Wonho for him being goodlooking and all but i'd rather stand in that situation then be in here drinking, crying over you. Thinking about what you told me... What do you mean by you found someone else? How could you have done this to me? I'm done with this guessing game. Don't you remember the memories we shared? The laughter we both shared? I know i made some stupid decision but is this what we really have to go through?? Telling me you would be the only guy you ever loved.. And now all that's left of you is the picture of you on my phone.. 

It's been a year since we've started dated Minhyuk ah.. and it has been only months since I've started working at the singing pub.. you were against it at first but you still let me carry on with this work line because you know how much i love to sing... Another 3 more months passed since working there and you told me IT'S OVER. I don't understand what do you mean by its over... We were doing fine.. I don't understand.. I keep looking for you but you were never home nor did you call me back.. Even if i did find a way to talk to you.. You'd tell me you found someone else... I don't know what have i done wrong or what went wrong you never told me... You left me stranding here alone standing here with tears falling every night knowing that if i call you, you'll never come back to me...

Remember how at our FIRST MONTH?
You said we'd make it all the way to we're 27 and we will get married then we will work hard and travel around the world and finally rest side by side and go on together? 
 

SECOND MONTH..
Diving into the relationship you brought me back to Lottee world where we both confessed.. 

THIRD MONTH...
I've decided it's time to let my family know that we're together.. I told my dad and he told me It was already so obvious that we had a thing going on i didn't need to say a thing.. He gave us his blessing and even said he welcomes you as a family.
 

FOURTH MONTH....
It was the first time we ever had .. I still remember the lingering taste of your Lip balm.. Your scent.. The way you touched me...
Those words you said into my ear "Kihyun i love you.. You're the only one.." Were they all sorts of lie to you??
 

FIFTH MONTH...
It was the first time we ever had a fight.. And all this started because an old classmate of mine just asked me for my number to be get closer with me.. You didn't want me to pass him my number but i already did.. Maybe i couldn't tell he wanted something more then that.. But you were there to save me from the near situation... I was stupid and I've always kept your words in my head since then..
 

SIXTH MONTH...
I started Singing at the Pub.. Everything was going fine between us.. We loved, We played, Had fun.. Went to Jeju Island for a getaway...
Went star gazing and we made a promise to go to the Namsan Tower to put a Love lock just for us.. And we did.. Hyungwon and Wonho even came together to put their lock as well..
 

SEVENTH MONTH...
We locked our Love Lock.. Went shopping.. And it was that night you took out a box and said "Beyonce told me if i like it i should put a ring on it" you took out a box.. It wasn't the most expensive ring, or fanciful but it had our name on it.. "KI x HYUK" Up till today i still wear it.. No matter where am i..
 

EIGHTH​ MONTH....
Thing's took a bad turn.. Sometime's you never came over.. You'd never tell me why.. You started falling sick easily and you told me its nothing wrong... Nothing to worry about... I'd be too tired to keep up with asking questions and i'd give up on guessing on what's wrong with you cause you'd never told me..

NINTH MONTH...
It's been nine months since we got together.. We could have passed this Anniversary but it was the day you broke my heart.. You told me you found someone else that you love even more while i was working at the pub singing... I asked you do you not remember the memories we shared? Namsan Tower? Jeju Island? All the fight we had against who would use the computer and playstaion and who would shower first?? Minhyuk ah don't you remember??

Even if you don't exist, i think I'd still be in love with you.. From the high school memories till now.. When you shared all your secrets and sorrows and where you would hide if you're feeling sad, worried or afraid.. And I'd always find you there. But now since we're seniors.. You've changed so much and i fell for you.. You never went to hide again when you were feeling sad, worried or afraid you;d come to me and talk to me.. Everytime i do something stupid you'd always play along with me even if you know i would lose to you but you still let me win.. When we fought you'd let me win. Even when it's not your fault, you'll still apologize and calmed me down.. But now you found someone else... I wonder if you're perfectly happy.. living on without me.. I text you asking you if you're fine... I'd tell you i miss you.. But you never seem to say those words back.. So i figured I'd stop...

Another 2 month has passed.. I got a phone call from your Mom.. And she told me everything.. And I'd myself for not being able to see anything for being so oblivious... She cried over the phone.. And told me.. You were already on your death bed... Lung Cancer..Stage 4.. And he wouldn't be able to hold on anymore since he has been pushing back treatment... I rushed over after work...And you were there.. On your bed.. Pale and weak... I touched your cold body.. It reminded me of the hug we shared... It made me felt like i had everything in the world.. You looked at me.. Greeting you with a tired body.. You smile at me.. Days passed like this quick.. Every time I'd come after work you'd greet my tired body.. We'd had conversation with our eyes.. I fell asleep on the bed right beside you.. And the next morning you felt even worse then before you greeted me with tears in your eyes.. Your hand reached out to touch my face.. I grabbed it and you said "I always loved you.." And you'd stop moving.. And i cried once again.... I'm sorry i couldn't love you more, hating my ownself for not loving you more.. And the thought of you coming into my head always made me cry.. And i still miss you..

Don't go... I'm still here crying for losing you, for not loving you enough.. Come back to me.. The more I think of you the more i hate myself, the smaller i get.. Tears falling.. Missing you every single day.. Calling you even tho i know you're not coming back... I never imagined that my life would be without you.. Everyday living live like this comes off as a challenge.. Every night going to bed I close my eyes and your image always comes out.. I feel like I'm gonna die without you..It would be better for time to stop and let me hurt forever then forgetting you My Angel..

Even if i smile, Even if I'm with somebody i still think of you everyday. The promise we made to live on together and rest together you never kept.. But you always told me whatever happen i would have to live on.. Everyday looking at your picture I smile to myself and tears fall.. I think after time pass I'm really okay with Wonho and Hyungwon here cheering me up from time to time but i keep getting sad.. The memories i had with you keeps coming back, i keep revisiting the places we've been together and i promised myself i did that i wouldn't have cried.. But i still did.. I thought i had already move on but i guess not.. No matter what it's gotta be you, I'll be here waiting for you to come back and please Stay with me.. If i can go back in time i wanna go back to when you and i were one I'd made you get your treatment.. I'm still here at this Spot of the Ferris Wheel.. Looking out calling out to you.. Even knowing you wouldn't come back...

Writing a song all about you.. " My Love " ... 내 가족 내 천사 내 사랑.. Goodnight... 

-  Fin -

So hello guys ! Thank you for reading till the end of this story ! I don't really know what to say.. But this chapter is actually based off a song that i had the inspiration from for this entire story mixed with my own story... It's a song by Hyorin from Unpretty Rapstar ft Basick ~ I'll put the link here > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0P9a7LkKtRU < for you to listen to the song.. It's a very nice song but i don't think alot of people know about it.. So listen to it well ~ If you think i should write more let me know ~ haha Thank you for all the subscribers ! Have a nice weekend / weekday :) ! 

The part where my real life experience in the story is the Perfume part .. Expect i didn't go shopping with him.. But he got me a perfume instead.. And mine didn't have a happy ending.. So i really kinda just wanted to type this story based on how i wish things had turned out.. As for the tittle " My Love " It was because we didn't happen i found this song thru the show and i got hooked onto this real bad.. But after finding out the meaning of the song i actually liked it even more.. So therefore this chapter is born. 

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