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Hi I’m ___ 24 years old living in a small apartment here in seoul, I graduated in B.S management and just looking for a job right now, I’m a simple person who loves to eat and draw, I didn’t live with my parents they live in busan I just want to study here in seoul because I have a big dream for them and they let me be and supported my decision and that’s why I love my parents till death, hehe I’m just the only child they have so it’s hard for them to accept me being away from them but they know that I’m doing this all for them, and oh I have a best friend name, tiffany hwang,

She just the same course as me and same age, we could’ve leave each other side, I know crazy right haha, anyway she wanted to do fashion but she wants to be with me and ended up getting the same course as me, well her parents wants her to do business so yeah, she’s sweet right? haha , and I’ve been inlove with her ever since I saw her at the campus.

She was bullied at the back of the campus where no other person could think that people were going to get bullied there and thanks god I went there because I got lost, ironic isn’t it?, and guess what I’m the one who rescue her, haha I feel like I’m a super hero who rescue her princess, but nope it’s not what you think it is because I got beat up and got a lot of bruises all over my body, well I didn’t know why she got bullied though but I heard some of them telling her that she’s not pretty and all, what the heck is wrong with their eyes?, not pretty at all?? damn, she beyond pretty she could pass as goddess okay? I’m not exaggerating okay it was all true, I’m not a liar, after I got beat up I just laugh it off and went to approach tiffany and guess what? She just look at me and laughing too hard on me, and I was like, “what’s wrong with her?” she looks crazy laughing at me..

She should be thanking me instead of laughing at me right? she’s crazy I know… and that’s the start of our friendship and those girls who beat her didn’t bother her anymore although I got the beating and harsh words from them, but tiffany didn’t know all of this, and she didn’t know it until now, well she doesn’t have to know though. I can take it as long as she’s safe hehe.. but then that was the time I fell for her, when she give me that eyes smile of her, my world just stop and she’s the only person I saw that time and the time stop, I couldn’t forget about it up until now those feeling is still fresh in my heart and mind, being with her many years makes me fell for her deeper and deeper,  some of my friend keep telling me to confess to her but I don’t have the courage to do so, so I just let it be and be happy being with her and its totally enough for me,

But they keep telling me to confess and bother me every single day and tiffany notice that but I don’t have the courage to confess until one day, when I heard tiffany that she meet a girl and she told me that she likes her, I wanted to tell her than time that maybe she was just being delusional about liking a girl, yes I didn’t know if tiffany swing that way not until she told me she likes this girl name taeyeon, after some months dating her, she told me that they are official and telling me that she was inlove with taeyeon, and it breaks my heart into pieces I wanted to jump off the bridge to kill myself but, if I do that who would protect tiffany?

I’m the only one who she trust with or not until she meet taeyeon,  the two of them actually meet in the mall, and tiffany that time was waiting for me but I couldn’t contact her cause my phone died, yes I’m unlucky that time, and add to that there’s traffic and all, and tiffany waits for me outside the mall and thanks for that rain it becomes so hard to reach immediately, and that’s the time taeyeon become her rescue, destiny? I don’t know maybe fate, or well forget about it, and if I arrive before taeyeon, then maybe they won’t be together,

They been together for 2 years, its long I know, I was being a good friend and still stay with tiffany because I couldn’t leave her so I stay even though I’m hurting inside, my friends called me stupid and fool but I just didn’t mind them because I couldn’t lose tiffany, even for friendship I’m okay with it, I just support their relationship and even me and taeyeon becomes friends, yes we did I know I’m stupid, but it’s no one’s fault so yeah… until one day I heard tiffany sobbing while calling me, telling me that the two of them broke up, I thought I already lose a chance to tiffany and this happen, I shouldn’t be happy hearing the news right? but what can I do if I hope again, then maybe maybe someday we will be together, but then it got worse when I always see tiffany crying, or going to my apartment just to cry it all out and I’m a good bestfriend who was with her,

it’s hurting me inside seeing your love one who’s hurting and you can’t do anything to help her, after some months of being single I know that she was showing me the strong side of her even I know it was just an act and it hurts me inside, you wanna help you best friend but you can’t, and I know deep down she’s still hurting….

I wanted to tell her my feelings but I got scared every time I have the courage to say it all to her, telling her how much I love her but I ended up not telling her because I’m a coward.

I was still day dreaming when someone hugs my waist and I smell the scent, I smile as I feel her hugs me tight and I can’t help but blush at the same time my heart beats so fast, and I know she will notice it and will tease me over and over again…..

“awwwwwww I really love seeing you like this” she let go of the hug and went in front of me giving me those eyes smile again, I just look away and heard her laugh,

“haha your so cute” holding my face and making me face her at the same time pinching my cheeks so hard as I can’t help but look at her, she just give me a smirk and I know I have to get ready for it..

“so your day dreaming about me?” here’s she comes, the ultimate teaser…

“ah hah! So full of yourself.?” She smirks again and I have this urge to wipe that smirk off from her face.

“hahaha well I told you to get used to it.”

“yeah yeah” I role my eyes on her and didn’t bother to look at her not when she said.

“but why does your heart beats a lot when I’m hugging you or kissing you?” I look at her as she beginning to smirk again,

Widening my eyes and throw a book on her but she dodge it and merong at me.

“it was normal though”I said but she just raise her eye brow at me and said,

“normal you say?”

I notice her approaching me closer and I was seating at the sofa while she seat at the small table just in front of me, I lean my back at the sofa as she went closer and closer as our face just inches away from each other, I gulp my saliva as I look at her eyes, to her nose and those lips, oh  damn ____, as I couldn’t help but stare at her beautiful eyes that I fell inlove with, she didn’t stop either and I even notice her smirking at me again and the next thing I know she kiss my cheeks and laughing at me, I don’t know why she’s laughing though but for sure I’m blushing when she kiss me, oh my heart why are you beating so fast. It’s not like the first time she’s doing this to you. after that I heard her say.

“see your blushing hahahahha” I quickly hide my face with my hands and telling her that it was too hot but I guess it was wrong to tell her that…

“ohhh its hot?” oh my god that smirk again but this time it’s different, what she’s planning now, I look away from her stare, damn when it comes to her my brain won’t function well, I just heard her laugh at me and after some minutes she clear and said,

“oh god that’s a good laugh” looking at her pouting and said,

“please stop teasing me” she wipes her tears away due to laughing so hard and looks at me.

“okay okay geez stop pouting will you or I’ll kiss you” I widen my eyes and glare at her while covering my lips with my hands and she just giggle at me and said,

“anyway ___ have you find a job already?” she ask but I couldn’t answer her when I notice that she’s being happy and spoke saying..

“why don’t you work to my company?” ohh right I haven’t told you that tiffany is super rich while me? I’m just an average person, my family is just in the middle, she never judge me nor laugh at my status and tiffany is just a down to earth woman, I never once saw tiffany use her wealth that’s what I love about her,

“yah!!!!” I wake up from my thinking as I look at her giving her my smile,

“what were you thinking huh? Tell me.. are you okay?”

“yes I am okay fany-ah” tiffany widen her eyes and even me, I forgot taeyeon used to call her that, I was about to talk to her when she cut me off and said,

“anyway are you okay with my offer?” I look at her and shake my head.

“ahhhhhhh waeeeeeeeee tell me why you don’t want to work on my company.

“look tiff, if I work there your employee might think that I’m using you to get into the company, so it’s a big no for me okay?

“so? Your smart ___ even dad offer you the job, just take it, I don’t want you to work with other companies and I can’t live without you” ohhhh no here comes the puppy eyes… I immediately cover my eyes with my hands as I heard her shout..

“yah!!! ____-ah. Don’t cover your eyes”

“so you can hypnotize me with your eyes huh?”

Oh my god why she become such a teaser, damn.. I ready myself to stand up but she got my shoulder and holds it tight, she holds my hands and take it away from my eyes, she looks at me smirking and then it turns into her puppy eyes, ‘oh my god… retreat! Retreat ____!!!...

I look away but she got my face and make me face her, and I saw that puppy eyes again and now she’s pouting???... damn I can’t even say no to her…

“arrgghhhhhh fine fine,” she smile at me and hugs me so tight and I feel myself stiffen but compose myself immediately, I don’t want her to notice me being weird towards her, she let go of the hug and looks at me and said.

“it be great to have you there ___-ah so thank you” she’s giving me those eyes smile again, ohh my… I look away as I shoo her away and said,,,

“now go home tiff, you have to get ready for next week as you will become the next ceo of the company”

“yeah” I heard her voice like she was too sad about something , I look at her and notice her staring at me, I control myself and hold her hands and caressing it while saying,

“you’ll be just fine tiff, you can get through all of this and yah your smart and y tiffany hwang that can do anything”

I give her my own signature smile and saw her got shock by it, am i disgusting her? Damn, but then she compose herself and said thank you to me, I got confuse on why she react that way, I mean she always saw my smile though does it mean she have feelings with me??? Oh stop being delusional again ___... you and her can’t be together…

“can I just stay here? I’ll promise I’ll go home tomorrow morning, it’s just too lonely at home” she pouted as I just nodded my head at her.

“anyway I’ll inform dad about you accepting the job, he will be happy getting this news” she was about to seat beside me when I said,

“can I just be your secretary?” I know I’m stupid and she’s offering me a higher position and even mr.hwang offer me a good position at the company, but I want to be with her and I wanted to take care of her being a secretary is a good job anyway, I could get to see tiffany every day.

“are you serious?”

“yeah I am, I don’t want you to miss me that much”

“haha so full of yourself ___-ah?”

“hahahaha it’s true anyway”

“yeah yeah but dad offer you a big opportunity though”

“I know but I want to be with you” oh no why did I say that, she will misunderstood me, I brave myself and saw her smirk at me,

“yah that’s not what you think it is okay? You’re my bestfriend,”

“hahahahha okay then” when she said that its like she was waiting for me to tell her something but I shrug that off as I stand up and heard her ask.

“where you going?”

“ahh to clean the guest room?”

“ohh but can I not sleep with you in your room?” it’s my turn to smirk now as she widen her eyes and waving it in front of me,

“yah!!!!!! You and your erted mind”

I just sat myself while laughing at her…

“don’t be too full of yourself hwang, you’re not my type” nope I just lie about that, she’s totally my type.

“hahahah your not my type either” ohh damn, my heart be brave I know you’re hurting right now and you know you can’t have her.. I bite my tongue and try smiling at her.

“anyway I still have some clothes here right?” I nodded as she stand up and excuse herself telling me that she wants to take a shower, she even tease me telling me if I want to join her, oh my I really wanted to but I don’t want her to think that I’m a byun even though that I really I am oh my god did I just admit that I’m byun??? Oh well I’m just byun over her… I saw her enter my room as I lean my back on the chair….

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I was closing my eyes when someone sat on my lap, I immediately open my eyes and saw tiffany wearing her y pajama, I gulp as I keep staring at her… I saw in her eyes was full of sadness and I know she’s missing taeyeon, she just looks at me and I don’t know why she’s staring at me, she holds my jaw and slowly caressing it and it send shivers to my spine, she wrap her arms around my neck as she hugs me so tight and putting her chin on my shoulder while saying…

“I miss her a lot” I bite my lips as I slowly wrap my arms around her back and rubbing it slowly soothing her and said..

“I know tiff” my heart winch in pain she just hugs me so tight as I know she’s crying now, I just let her be and continue to rubs her back slowly….

“she was mumbling something and I know she’s talking about taeyeon, I couldn’t help seeing her like this, it’s been months that she’s being like this, crying and not to herself sometimes.. I wanted to tell her how much it hurts me seeing her like that.. and I can do anything to take her pain away I will, if only she knows my feelings then maybe I could help her forgetting about taeyeon but I don’t have any courage to tell her my true feelings