this wAS JUST EVERYTHING. I HATE THIS FIC FOR MAKING ME LIKE THIS IM SO EMOTIONAL THIS WAS SO GOOD THIS WAS TOO GOOD
THE EMOTIONS WERE ALL SO RAW BOTH BAEKS AND YEOLS. EVERYTHING. i love that baek was just daring and tired of everything and that he almost had to force yeol into admission of the truth. Its so scary how accurate and real these feelings seemed for me, like... ok im not delusional enough to say that this is real, but as fic material this was just the most heart wrenching thing how they both knew they were in love with each other and how baek just wanted to make it work but yeol has always phulled away. And that yeol had to be pushed to his limits by baek making him think of him with someone else, of him making love with someone that he doesnt love.... GOD WHEN BAEK WAS SO ADAMANT WHEN HED SAID YEOL ISNT HIS BROTHER THATS WHEN I LEGIT FELT MY HEART ACHE. DAMN. EVERYTHING. baeksoo wouldve been a good device or trigger for yeol but maybe im not so sure if it really did happen or not. I think i got so caught up in yeol just suddenly being possessive and even if it had to be in this kind of circumstance i just felt the weight of him finally letting go so they can just /be/
AAAAHHHHHHHH SERIOUSLY. This was just. Such a raw fic idk how else to put it what i loved most was how raw their emotions were thats it. And how they made love was so reflective of their fears and love and im just???? So done i love this. You probably get this already but theres nothing i love more than canon angst SIGHS
THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR WRITING AND SHARING THIS WONDERFUL FIC UGHHHH
Ps this was so well written my english major heart is swooning

Chapter 1: amd i will repeat why KYUNGSOOO??????

JOKE...


AFSHSSUHSHSSHDH lana!!!! i am speechless! what to do??? i think i need help!!!