Confession

Christmas Surprise!

수백 번 성공한적 없는 고백 
자신감이 없는 나 should I just go back 
반드시 고백한다
말만 하면 뭐해 in the end 

니 앞에서 들 수 없는 나의 고개

"Hundreds of confessions without success
I feel so unconfident should I just go back
I say I’ll confess for sure
but it’s pointless with no actions in the end
Can’t keep my head up in front of you"

Jaebum was quietly panicking while listening to his own group's Christmas song.

Mark didn't know that on Christmas something that would change his life would happen.

Jaebum and Mark looked at each other but never directly.

A few glimpses of each other before both turned their heads away in embarrassment.

It was Jaebum who found himself unsure of how to even admit his feelings to Mark.

It was Mark who thought Jaebum disliked him.

 

난 니가 좋아 이 말이 도대체 왜 어려운지
말 하려다 말려다 말 하려다 말려다
편지를 써서 주는 것 마저도 왜 힘이 들지
썼다가 또 찢었다 썼다가 또 찢었다

"I’m in love with you, why are these words so hard
I keep hesitating to say over and over again
Why is it so hard just to write a simple letter
I keep writing and tearing it over and over again."

Mark was confused.

Jaebum was cautious.

Both were slow and simple.

Mark didn't understand why he was dragged to an amusement park by his leader.

Jaebum felt that time had stopped when he faced Mark with a slightly embarrassed expression.

They were both on the Ferris Wheel.

Both were gazing at each other as they both tried to attempt to speak.

 

너의 마음이 나와 달라 
너를 두 번 다신 못 볼까 봐
그게 너무 두려워서

말할 용기가 나질 않아
이렇게 노래를 빌려
나의 마음을 너에게 열게

"You may not feel the same way as I do
I may never see you again,
that’s what I’m afraid of
Don’t have the courage to tell you
With this song let me
open my heart to you."

Jaebum softly spoke, "You might not feel the same way as me."

"But..." he trailed off as his cheeks turned a shade of pink.

"What is it, leader?" Mark smiled.

Jaebum felt his heart skip a beat as he reached out to place his right hand on top of Mark's left hand

"You see...you know you're one of my best friends, right?" he asked in a quiet voice.

Mark simply nodded.

"And...well...I started to see you differently." Jaebum said with a nod.

Mark blinked in confusion while trying to grasp the situation.

"Do you not want to be best friends with me anymore, leader?" he asked calmly.

 

I love you, baby I,
I love you (아주 오래 전부터)
I love you, baby I,
I love you (I do)

 "No. That's not it," Jaebum answered as he shook his head.

"Then spit it out," Mark said.

Jaebum slowly got out of his seat and moved to kneel in front of Mark.

He took out a box that held the two couple rings he had gotten a few weeks ago.

He took a deep breath and looked up at Mark with solemn eyes before speaking.

"I like you, hyung. Please go out with me."

 

하루 종일 너의 답장을 기다려
혹시라도 말 실수 할까 봐서 
썼다 지웠다를 반복해
나의 진심관 달리 말이 헛 나오네
거울을 보며 연습했던 
드라마 같은 대사들은 네 앞에 서면 
까먹은 채로 허둥대
내 손은 너의 손 앞에서 멈칫해
심장소리가 너에게 들릴 듯이 커지네 yeah

"All day long I wait for your reply
I keep writing and erasing to make sure
there’s no mistake in my words
I accidently say things that I don’t mean
The dramatic lines
that I practiced in front of the mirror
Are all forgotten when I stand
in front of you, flustering me
My hands hesitate in front of yours."

Mark looked at Jaebum with a stunned expression. 

Jaebum nervously gulped while waiting for Mark's response.

Time seemed to stand still for the both of them.

The day slowly became night.

The Ferris Wheel slowly moving.

Jaebum's words slowly sinked in Mark's mind.

He could either accept or reject.

 

 
너의 마음이 나와 달라 
너를 두 번 다신 못 볼까 봐
그게 너무 두려워서

말할 용기가 나질 않아
이렇게 노래를 빌려
나의 마음을 너에게 열게

"My heartbeat sound getting louder,
you might hear it yeah
You may not feel the same way as I do
I may never see you again, that’s what I’m afraid of
Don’t have the courage to tell you
With this song let me open my heart to you."

As Mark was deciding what he felt towards his leader, Jaebum felt that his heartbeat kept beating faster and louder with each second passing by.

It didn't go unnoticed by Mark. 

Mark looked at Jaebum and felt his own face flush slowly.

"I...leader, why me?" he asked softly as he moved his left hand and held Jaebum's right hand.

"I don't know...you're just really special and someone I want to protect...but...I also started noticing my heartbeat faster everytime I looked at you," Jaebum merely smiled sheepishly.

Mark felt his cheeks heat up as he coughed quietly.

"My answer is..."

 
I love you, baby I,
I love you (아주 오래 전부터)
I love you, baby I,
I love you (I do)

"My answer is...yes," Mark smiled as he reached out to take one of the couple rings from the box.

Jaebum's eyes widened before he moved to sit next to Mark with a soft smile.

Mark reached out and took Jaebum's right hand, slipping the ring he was holding and slipped it onto Jaebum's ring finger.

"Let me," Jaebum simply said as he reached for Mark's right hand.

Mark nodded and placed his hand on Jaebum's right hand.

Jaebum slipped the other couple ring on Mark's ring finger before leaning over to peck Mark's cheek quickly.

 
내 심장은 DRUM 소리처럼 두근거려
내 품은 너를 꽉 안을 날만 기다려
내 달력은 빨간 표시만을 기다리고
내 고백은 나의 용기만을 기다려
여전히 나는 소심한 바보지만
수많은 밤을 새며 썼던 이 노래가
나의 진심을 전해주길 원해
이어폰 한 쪽을 너의 손에
어때? 

"My heart beats like a DRUM
My arms just wait for the day to hug you tight
My calendar just waits for the day marked red
My confession just waits for my courage
Though I am still a timid fool
I hope this song I wrote for countless nights
Deliver my sincerity
Take one side of the earphone in your hand
Shall we?"

Mark blushed a little bit.

Jaebum chuckled softly.

"Let's go slow," he murmured quietly while moving to lay his head on Mark's shoulder.

Mark nodded and smiled softly.

"You know...Confession song suits us," Jaebum whispered.

"It does," Mark agreed.

They both started to sing the chorus while smiling at each other.

 
"I love you (love you), baby I,
I love you (아주 오래 전부터)
I love you (woo hoo~), baby I,
I love you (I do, I do)"
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HanJacks #1
Chapter 1: THIS IS SO CUTEEEE. omg this is soo cuteeee. So kyuu TT TT
CaptainHanbae
#2
Chapter 1: Omg, this was adorabl e;;
beastlyhyun
#3
Chapter 1: Ahhhh i love it!! The moment was so sweet i cant (•ω•)
Tobiowasaki
#4
Chapter 1: CUTE A LITTLE SECONDHAND EMBARRASSMENT BUT CUTE
Asan_ficHORA
#5
Chapter 1: OMG this is so lovely! It isn't too short nor too long & the plot is really nice~ Thank you so much for writing this! MarkBum ♥ And that gif! @;@
smilewhy #6
I really liked this fanfiction but I think if song lyrics were in English format It would make more sense to me