Jung Joo Yeon's P.O.V

 

You're never coming back and I am honestly, trying my hardest to be okay with that.

But sadly, I can't seem to.

I realize it now, I love him and still do.
I never loved him, I have always love him.

I sat down on my bed, my back leaning against the cold hard wall. 
Funny how I felt like this single sized bed is too large and how the room temperature dropped without his presence. I let out a shaky breath as the image of us squeezed on each other on this bed appeared. The space was so small back then.

I turned my head and saw a frame on the bed stand.
It's a picture of us, Kim Taehyung.
I sighed heavily.

A tear escaped from my eye. I feel so pathetic. No matter how many times I remind myself that he's not worth my tears, they still fall eventually. With my feelings mixed, I picked it up and threw the frame against the wall, watching it as the glass cover shattered. I thought I would make me feel better but no, it made it worst. It just made me regret. Oh how I adored that picture.. This is the way I lived my life so far, living with the feeling of regret. With a sore heart, I pressed my face onto my pillow.

Stop it Joo Yeon. Enough.

It had been a month.
If he wanted you back, he would have asked.
But he didn't.

It's not the first time we broke up.
But it is the first time we ever broken up this long. The longest period we ever split up before were only for 2 weeks. Then we're back together again. It have always been like that, I've lose count.

But well I guess, it's really the end this time. 
Our story has come to its end now.

I bite my lower lips trying to endure the pain that's eating me alive as I put my pillow away.

This is what you wanted, fool.
Why aren't you happy? I looked up and into the mirror across my bed. Look at that.. I chuckled to myself.
No wonder he stopped loving me. I mean, who would love 'that'? I'm a wreck, a mess. I cringe at the sight and dropped my gaze to somewhere else.

Then I grabbed my phone.

3:24 AM.

I went through our old conversation... again.
For the same reason, trying to find where it all went wrong .

Where he changed.
Where I changed.
Where we changed. 
Where our feelings changed.

I laughed for awhile as I read his loving texts but then I cried again.

This is no use.
My hands are shaking.
If I call him, will he answer?

No, stop.

You can't.
You survived a month, you'll survive forever.

 

Kim Tae Hyung's P.O.V

 

I hate this. I still catch myself feeling sad over things that doesn't matter anymore. This .

I think I realize it now. I love her and still do. After all this time. Why now? Why after everything has ended? Why?

I hugged my knees against my chest. Then I buried my face against them.

Kim Taehyung, you're a man. You can't be like this. 

I tried to comfort myself but there's no use.
I miss her and it's killing me.

It had been a month.

But she, herself told me that this is the end. 
That was the last.
She had enough.
This is what she wanted.

My whole body trembled.

I stared at the picture I was holding.
A picture of us.
And I tore the picture apart then threw it aside.

I saw the flamingo origami standing proud on my lamp table.
The image of us laughing while getting tons of paper cuts together just to make that piece of appeared.
My heart sank in sorrow.
The pain was numb back then. But now I think it hurts too much that it'll kill me..

I stood up from my bed and picked it up.
With a heavy heart, I forced myself and crumpled it in my fist, then I walked to the balcony.
With all of my remaining energy, I threw it in the air and it flew away with the wind. 

I turned my back but then I turned back around, pressing myself against the fence while reaching out my arms. No no no no no, come back.. Comeback.. All of my feelings rushed into me as it flew further. 

".." I cursed under my breath.

I ran my fingers through my hair as I threw my head back in frustration.

"God damn it!" I yelled on top of my lungs and sobbed hardly. I stepped back and my knees met the cold floor. I let it all out.. All of the tears I tried to hold back, all of the sadness that has bottled up inside me. 

I'm so sorry.
I did you wrong.
I'm so sorry that I let you go.
This is all my fault.
I'd take the blame, all of it if you want me too.
I swear.

 

15 months ago.

 

Jung Joo Yeon's P.O.V

 

I walked down the hallway to my class while I mumble to my favorite song.

I saw a crowd in the middle of the way. It made me pause for a second before continuing.

What is this? 

I went closer. Then I saw someone in the middle of the crowd.

A new guy. Ahhh, I should've known.
The other students around him were interviewing him. Those creepers. You guys will scare him away! I clicked my tongue and shook my head.

He is tall. 
His grin is heart shaped.
His hair brownish and messy.
He looks shy. He's cute.

I turned away and started walking.

"Hey, Jung Joo Yeon!" I turned around, back to the crowd.

I saw Jungkook, my classmate.

He had his arm wrapped around the new guy's shoulder.

"Taehyung said you're cute." He shouted.

Taehyung, I repeated the name in my mind.

I looked at the new guy he was shaking his head with his eyes widened. I smiled and entered my class.

Taehyung. I repeated again.

It can't be true. He didn't say it. Why would he? 
That Jungkook kid.

But what if he did?

I bite my lower lips, feeling my cheeks burning.
I daydreamed with a palm against my chin.
I like him.

Kim Tae Hyung's P.O.V

I saw her walking down the aisle. I stared at her.

Whoa, who's that? I looked away when she stopped in front of us.

"Why did you transfer here?" Someone asked.

"I uhh.. I.."

She was looking at me. I felt so shy all of the sudden.

That's weird cause I had been talking to these people without any shame, and now just the appearance of this girl makes me shy. From the corner of my eyes, I saw her walking away.

I turned to the guy next to me who had his arms on my shoulder.

"Woah dude, she's cute." I whispered.

He grinned cheekily then turned away.
"Hey, Jung Joo Yeon!" he shouted at the girl.

Jung Joo Yeon. Noted.
"Taehyung said you're cute!" What the heck.

My jaw dropped, I turned to her and shook my head.
She smiled and there. 
Right there.

I want her.

 

13 months ago.

 

Kim Tae Hyung's P.O.V

 

My heart was beating so fast.

"Joo Yeon ah, be mine?" I practiced and I hit my own head. That sounds so stupid.

"I've fallen for you since the first time we met- Ah aniya." Too cheesy.

"Jung Joo Yeon, be my girlfriend?" No that's too blunt.

What if she says no? I bite my nails.

I stood up, slightly jumping up and down. Stop it Kim Tae Hyung, you're in a cafe.

I looked around and met a few pairs of eyes. I cleared my throat as my ears burned. I sat back down.

The entrance doorbell rang.

I looked up and my breath stopped. It's her.

She waved at me before going to the counter to order her drink. 
I breathed in and out.

Think Kim Tae Hyung.
You're a man.
Now or never.

I maintained a forced smile at her as she sat down across me.
"H-Hi." I stuttered, I started to sweat.
"Hey." She said and sipped her watermelon juice.
"You said you have something to say?" She asked.

I blinked.

"I uh.. Hey, does that taste good?" Oh god.
She giggled. I calmed down after hearing that melodic sound.

"Uh yes." She answered. I felt uneasy. I don't think I can do this.

I looked around.

"What is it?" She asked.
If I was her, I would have left.

"Taehyung, sorry but I don't have much time. I have to-"

"Let's date."

Her eyes widened.

"W-what?"

"Look I have been wanting you since we first met- ew that's so cheesy. Anyways, that's the truth and I really like you. Be my girlfriend?" I asked.
My hope turned down as she laughed. I looked away.

Why did you do that idiot? I sighed.

But then I felt a pair of hands cupped my cheeks, pulling my face up.
Before I knew it she pressed her lips against mine.

"Is.. I-is that a yes?" I stuttered as she pulled away. My eyes were wide open.

She nodded. I sighed in relief.

There's no word that can describe how happy I felt. 
But what I can say is that it felt like I won the biggest award in my life.

 

10 months ago.

 

Jung Joo Yeon's P.O.V

 

I sat back on the couch, watching the television. I looked up at the wall clock.

8:39 P.M.

I grabbed my phone and still no replies from Tae Hyung. I pouted.

Is he okay? I texted him again for the fifth time.

'Taehyung'
I froze when I heard my apartment door being opened.

Who the heck?

I rolled down and hid behind the couch.
I gulped.
I live alone, who could it be? No one knows my passcode beside my parents who are at our home town.

I bite my nails. My heart beat quickened.

I heard footsteps coming closer. Please don't kill me.

I shut my eyes tight.

"Baby what are you doing?"

I opened my eyes and looked up. I let my forehead touch the floor as I sighed in relief.

Kim Tae Hyung.

I stood up and hit his arm.

"Ouch! What did I do?" He rubs his arm.

"How did you know my passcode?" I asked, frowning at him.

"You told me." He answered. I hissed.

"I thought.. huh." I covered my face.

"N'awww, Jung Joo Yeon.. Did I scare you?" He engulfed me into his arms.

I pushed him away.

"Yes! Why didn't you reply my texts?" I asked.

"I was hella worried." I added.

"Now now, come here." He wrapped his arms around me again.

"I hate you.." I muttered under my breath.

"My phone was out of battery okay, see." He took out his phone and showed it to me. I pulled away and took his phone.

"Why are you here anyway?" I asked.

He pulled a luggage from his back. My eyes widened.

"Are you going somewhere?" Another question. He grinned.

"Babe, I'm moving in."

My jaw dropped.

"WHAT? No no no no no" I turned his body, pushing him. He laughed and faced me.

"Do you have any reasonable reason why I can't?" He crossed his arms. He gave me that look which I couldn't resist.

"I love you, but-"

He leaned in and pecked my cheeks.

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