Memories ploughed into me one after the other- his hand in mine - sweet smiles - him calling my name- Hundreds of his face, from every angle, with every emotion on it.

My heart sped up. Maybe coming here was a mistake, I had played this in my mind endlessly, but I hadn't expected this, for him not to see me, for him to have changed so much... How stupid of me to think that he would see me, notice me like this. I was being swallowed alive by the monster that was the crowd. 

Even though I was close enough to touch him, I'd never felt so far away. The invisible distance crushed me and the pain was as real as when he had first left...

The ice cold tears that casscaded from my eyes left trails that burned my cheeks.

And I turned my back on him.