"BREAKING NEWS!! SHINEE JONGHYUN AND SHIN SEKYUNG ARE CONFIRMED DATING!"

Those red headlines that showed up from the link that my friend just gave me makes my heart almost stop. My face fell as I feel the world around me turning upside down. I can't control my breath, It's getting shorter and my eyes startign to blur my vision because of tears that wanting to flow.

"Hey girl! What is it? What happened to you?" I snapped back at the voice of my friend Rei, talking to me. "What is it?" she tried to look at my laptop but i pushed her away

"N-nothing, it's nothing!" I give out my best smile but only to just see her shaking her head in disagreement

"I know it's not nothing kyungie~" she said then reaching for my laptop. She read the tab that i opened and her eyes grew big like me before.

"... SERIOUSLY? T-This kid is.....crazy.." she shook her head and showing the same shocked expression like me before, I just shrugged off

"Are you okay with this kyung-ah?" rei asked me, i wipe my tears away from my face so it wont fall

"What okay? Of course I'm okay!" I let out an awkward giggle. She just looked deeply at me, she knows me so well so I can't lie to her, "actually, ....I'm not," again, ifeel tears forming on my eyes and my heart aches so much

"Sssh.. It's okay," she hugged me and i cried on her arms.

Kim Jonghyun from SHINee is my bestfriend. We knew each other for long and we usually talk with each other through our phone messenger. and about a few months ago, i realized that I fell for him. Is it his charm? his kindness? His charming voice that even makes me hypnotized eventhough I've been hearing that voice over and over again?? .. I don't know. I just..... realized it.

Rei is the only person that knows about this and I always keep it as a secret from everyone that I know him. Rei also knows jonghyun because i brought her along when the last time i met him on some concert about 3 months ago. She's also a shinee fan and she almost died from a heart attack when she found out that me is jonghyun's best friend. then she knew that I fancy him also...


but now it means nothing....



nothing.


i can't do anything after that article comes out. I should get rid of this feelings towards him. He's out there, being a star and all while I'm here, working my off for my college works.



After that, I can;t concentrate in my literature class at all. My mind was full of jonghyun and his sudden confession. Before, he would tell me who is the girl that he took interest in or his crush and everything. It was before I realized that i loved him of course. And now, suddenly I knew this thing not from him but from some article in the internet, making my heart aches even more

PING!

My blackberry rang, i rolled on my bed and grab my phone by the night stand and read the message on the messanger. DEG! My heart beat faster as I read the sender , "dinohead"

jjongbling2: yah! Kyungie~

I stay silent for a few minutes, then I decided to reply him

hyunkyung22: hey! what's up jjong?
jjongbling2: ....you read the news right?

I gulped a big lump in my throat and hold back my tears as I try to keep calm and reply his messages.

hyunkyung22: ah~ so it's true then? you and shin sekyung...?
jjongbling2: hehehehehehehe yes yes yes :D :D :D

My heart aches so much looking at those smiley emoticons he sent to me,. but suddenly my ego takes over and wanting him to know.. that I'm hurt

hyunkyung22: you never told me before.....
jjongbling2: Im sorry,... i was so busy and this thing is.........

I stay in silent for a minute, then came another message

jjongbling2: are you mad kyungie?
hyunkyung22: what do you think? I used to know everything first and then.... i knew something like this from an article... :(
jjongbling2: :( :( :(

another tears escaping from my eyes. I clutch my shirt tightly and lean back to the head of my bed for support

hyunkyung22: it's okay though~ :)
jjongbling2: :) :) I know you can't be mad at me..ㅋㅋㅋ

WRONG. SO WRONG Kim Jonghyun... I'm uber mad at you right now

hyunkyung22: why so sudden? you never tell me before jjong~ will you okay with this? I mean.. your career?
jjongbling2: I... actually don't know
hyunkyung22: then why you did this?
jjongbling2: they caught us, so..... after talk between the agencies, they say the best way is just... admitting it kyung-ah~ Did I do wrong to agree with this?


WRONG


My heart tells me to send that to him but i can't press the letters and I feel a tear escaping from the corner of my eyes.

hyunkyung22: no, you didn't do anything wrong. btw, im happy for you guys~
jjongbling2: :D really? thanks kyungie~
hyunkyung22: ^^
jjongbling2: hope you'll find someone you like and be happy, just like me and her

Right, be happy. Another tears escaped from the corner of my eyes.

hyunkyung22: hope so~^^
jjongbling2: kekeke ^^ btw, I'm with her now, she said she really want to meet you someday and I want to introduce my bestfriend to her too. So... if my schedule has died down, can we arrange some meetings? I missed you kyungie~

DEG! Another stake in my heart, it aches so much. but now i try to bring myself up, and be a good friend for him. a good FRIEND.

FRIEND


hyunkyung22: haha i missed you too jjong. sure! just tell me whenever you guys are free! ^^
jjongbling2: awesome! I know I can always count on you~
hyunkyung22: that's what friends are for right? hahahaha
jjongbling2: crap! I've to go now, g'bye kyungie~
hyunkyung22: bye jjong!
djjongbling2: bye bye kyungie!


Good bye.... Good bye jjong.

I'm late and I can't do anything about this. As a good.. FRIEND, I need to always support you no matter in what condition are you in. I'm your forever fan and i hope, i can erase you from my heart as soon as possible too.


I hope you are happy with her now. Good bye jjong,

Bye~~

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Edited! :D

hahaha sorry if this is weird or anything =="

I just wanted to write something about this >< kekeke~~

Blingers, don't be sad and keep continue loving & support him okay!!

(even though it's hard after what happened.. ^^;;)