Seulgi
Seven Years“Unnie, someday I will be a superstar!” I remember a 10-year-old me beaming at my favourite unnie.
I remember her saying,
“And I will be right behind you; I will be your number 1 fan, Seulgi-yah”
But where is she now that I’m successful?
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“Unnie, I got into a company!! I will be training there to become an idol!” I remember sharing the good news to her.
She is the first one whom I shared the news to, not my parents nor my siblings.
“That’s a great news, Seulgi-yah! Do you want to go to the karaoke to celebrate?”
I remember spending the whole night with her singing like there’s no tomorrow.
But now why am I spending some time at the karaoke alone?
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“Unnie, I’m leaving tomorrow because I have to start my training.” I remember crying with her at a nearby playground, hugging me like it’s gonna stop me from going.
I remember her saying,
“Seulgi-yah, when you’re famous already, don’t forget your Baechu-unnie, okay?”
I remember her wiping my tears with the back of her hand as I nodded to her request.
“I will never forget you, Unnie. You will always be right here.” I remember saying those words as I pointed in my chest where my heart is.
But now why does it feel like you never existed at all?
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I remember exchanging letters and emails with her every now and then. I remember her letters being at least 7-pages long. I remember her saying words of encouragement. I remember those letters saying,
“Seulgi-yah, how are you? I hope you can visit us soon. Unnie misses you so much. Please don’t be too stressed. You can do it, Seulgi-yah! I can’t wait for you to become a performer.”
But on my fifth year of training, her letters seemed shorter than ever. She would send it every other month. And honest
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