six 

2012 - twenty-six

and maybe they don’t really talk anymore (but it still kind of hurts)

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It couldn’t have been a better case of right person, wrong timing (but then again, maybe it wasn’t really the right person either – just fragments and pieces of who she wished it could be – and maybe that’s why it’s the wrong timing because it’ll never be the right time when she still missed him). 

Eunhyuk, Taemin, Yunho. 

They all stepped into her life, seemingly all at once, and it’s hard for her to differentiate which one was which and what she felt for each of them (and it made her wonder why – despite how great they all were – she’d always compare them to onyx orbs, brown hair brushing against his temples, the smell of cigarettes and autumn-in-the-woods). 

Well, with Eunhyuk, it’s not that hard to tell. It really wasn’t anything more than a little attraction (good laughs and fun times during practices for their performance of ‘Only One’). In all of the years of knowing him, she’d never actually spent that much time with him one on one, and now that she did, she could honestly say that he was a nice guy (and given that if she’d spent even more time with him, maybe, just maybe, she could’ve fooled herself into feeling something more than just attraction for him). And so things faded out as quickly as they’d started, but they keep up with the joking banter every time they pass each other in the halls of the studios. Boa couldn’t help but think if only it were something more. If only he were someone more. 

With Taemin, things were a little more complicated (mainly because they not only perform together, but because he’s also chosen by management to be the male lead for one of her new music videos). She couldn’t deny that the chemistry was there (even though it was for the screen). She was a little fascinated by the way his ears would turn pink whenever she accidentally brushed her fingers against his, and whenever he looked at her, it seemed like he was more than just a little attracted to her sof