final
black & whiteeverybody knows that
without luhan there is no sehun
just like without light there is no dark
that doesn’t mean to say
he ceases to exist
no, no
but the spark of life within him fades away
along with the man who has walked out of his life
sehun’s world is only black and white after luhan leaves
he cries a lot
he does
nobody questions
nobody comforts
because they know
unless it’s luhan holding
sehun in his arms
the tears won’t stop
sometimes they try
they really do try
to bring sehun out of his self designated darkness
to help him
see the light again
they want him to understand
that his behavior is spiralling
out
of
control
“how do you expect me to react, when the person most important to me is gone?”
he seeks solace
in the promise of tomorrow
in the memories of yesterday
in the whispers of love
he never
gives up
on their love
love
is such a fickle thing
it confuses
it harms
it desecrates
but most of all
love saves
and heals
and brightens
the darkness that
only a lonely person understands
sometimes sehun remembers
the stages
the dances
the songs
those eyes
always
those eyes
he did love luhan’s eyes
sometimes sehun remembers
the late nights
the early mornings
the endless days
his smile
always
his smile
he did love luhan’s smile
sometimes sehun remembers
the blood
the tears
the sweat
that kind, loving heart
always
that kind, loving heart
because after all
what else would sehun have fallen for?
black
and
white
yin
and
yang
luhan
and
sehun
always two halves of a whole
neither can exist
without the other
and sometimes
he cries himself to sleep
knowing that luhan is
gone
gone
gone
because after all
a whole is not a whole
if half is missing
and a half is not a half anymore
if it can’t be whole
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