Right now
12:30🎶🎶 Beast - 12:30 🎶🎶
" You can't keep doing this to me..."
I breath out heavily his body still on mine.
His breathing still rapid as he looks into my eyes.
That is all he had to do.
It was like looking at a mirror.
Tick~tock
Tick~tock
Tick~tock
Slowly I get up covering my body with the blanket.
I walk over the fluffy white carpet looking at the night view of Seoul.
The low sky feels like it's going to break down soon.
The mirror reflection showing Hyunseung holding his face between his palms.
I look down at my feet.
How did we end up here?
Feels like the time that followed us also stopped.
The glass was so cold as I pressed my forehead on it.
A green reflection caught my eye.
Numbers.
The clock numbers.
" I can't tell her." a voice broke my thoughts.
Right now we are like the clocks hands at 12:30.
We have our backs to eachother, looking at different places.
My breath caught in my lungs unwilling to come out.
I felt myself getting colder by the second.
" A-answer my question." my whisper getting foggy on the window glass.
Silence.
The bed made a creeking sound followed with feet shuffling on the floor.
Warmness came from the behind releasing what it was I turn around.
His eyes darting into mine as I gaze at his face.
White soft skin with sharp facial features and a pair of pouty pink lips.
Those lips that gave me tears and joy at the same time.
Those lips that are lying to me.
" I-I am a poison, AhRi.
And there is no cure."
he whispered into my ear.
Slowly he started kissing my neck moving down to my pulse spot.
Gently he bit it on the tender skin as I moan.
No.
This is wrong.
Stop this!
I push him away stumbling as my back hit the cold glass.
" What is wrong baby?" he asked inching closer.
" This." I whisper on his lips as he backs away.
" Isn't she enough?" I ask him boldly.
His eyes turning dark and clouded as he stared at me.
Silence.
I look at the ground a soft sigh leaving my lips.
" Yes, she is!!" He yells. "She is my everything, AhRi!You know that!
I love her more that myself!"
I look into his eyes, holding his gaze.
" Then why are you here?" I say quietly still looking at him.
Al of a sudden a tight embrace came over me knocking the air out of my chest.
His perfume filling the air around me.
He placed his head on my shoulder trembling.
" You-you are grabbing to tight." I whisper out of breath.
" I am sorry..." he said quietly giving me a bit of space.
The darkness showing his tired face.
"Your bright smile
Your warm body
I'm afraid I won't be able to see or touch it anymore. " he said in one breath.
" Maybe it's for the best." I whisper not trusting my voice.
" Maybe..." he reached for my face.
His soft fingers gazing my cheeks and bottom lip.
" Be happy with her, Hyunseung."
I say his finger on my bottom lip.
He nods slightly removing his hand and looking around.
" I should go."
" Okay."
Slowly he took his jacket and put his boots on.
I turned away from him tears flowing down my face.
Stop it, AhRi. You weakling.
" AhRi..." his soft voice said almost breaking me.
" De?" I say quitly.
" Be happy. A-and.
A-a-and..." his voice died down.
Yes?
" Goodbye." he said.
I love you.
" Goodbye Hyunseung."
I love you too, Hyunseung.
The click of the closed door making my knees buckle.
My whimpers becoming louder.
I pull my knees to myself as the saltiness of my tears burned my eyes.
Seoul looked so beautiful at this moment.
Will he ever come back?
?
A/N Should he come back? Tell me in the comments.
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