Here goes. I've never had the perfect life, the fantasy  fairytale, the Happy ever After. I've never even had friends for that matter, and i'm not saying that it was a bad thing...i'm just saying that I felt it when she left. The pain in my heart that I now know was abandonment. When my mother left me for God-knows-where it hurt. I thought that I would never know how to trust anyone again. And maybe I woul