Life ?! What makes life worth living ?! What makes us alive ?! When everyday seems like a never ending HELL .............. That feeling of being suffocated again .... Blood on my hands ..... The desire to cry .......  I miss them ..... Everything will be ok once we are together ..... I wokeup terrified again ..... It's been a while since i started to have this dream everynight ...... Now not only my day- time feels like a nightmare , I'm actual