The world behind these brick walls is a smog filled, grey and foggy madness, filled with monsters shaped like humans and humans lost in the forms of monsters. But here, where the fire is crackling quietly and the kettle is whistling softly everything is perfect - if only for a little bit.

*Fall Out Boy - The Last Of The Real Ones   "You were too good to be trueGold platedBut what's inside youBut what's inside youI know this whole damn city thinks it needs youBut not as much as I doAs much as I do"  

Minhyuk needs Hyunwoo. He needs him more than he needs air, more than he needs the crumbled up cigarettes in the ashtray.  He’s like nalorphine, cleaning Minhyuk’s lungs from the layer of tar each cigarette has left there, from the stains of nicotine and aftertaste of tobacco. He was Minhyuk's saving grace, his cure, while Minhyuk himself was a poison and he knew it far too well.

Bounded with proscription, paralized with fear and denial, incinerated by infinite love  not being able to breath, to understand, to move, to love, to live, to speak - will he end like that? 

Look in my eyes You're killing me, killing me All I wanted was you

There's always someone who's next to Haru despite misunderstandings, overcoming all arguments and chasing away every single doubt, anxiety and night terrors. There's always someone next to him who catches even the smallest dreams, silliest aspiration Haru has and helps turn them into reality. Even when fears skyrocket, he's there and without him Haru would be lost, he can finally admit that.

He was right there, just a hand reach away, just mere centimeters away from Kevin – his head down in concentration, lyrics quietly flowing from his lips. He was right there – his scent hitting Kevin’s nose, warmth radiating even from his back. He was right there, but yet too far away to reach for.

A rainy day, overheated and croved bus, good book and him suddenly sitting next to you.