16 • Nathan • UST Journalism student • Hypophrenic • Angst obsessed • I am a vandalized city orchestrated with sirens and gunshots • OFC I FANGIRL  •

Trash twitter account: @koreaphile

My active trash account. I literally am crazy there bc kpop... yeah i know you get it already. Let's interact there! And it's called a trash can btw. Not trash cannot. So im not completely useless.

Personal twitter account: @dominathanmm

My bipolar account bc im miserable. Thanks to kpop i am somehow living. Once depression hits you, it eventually goes away temporarily, but it will come back-- always did.

IG: @dominathanmm

A somehow brighter account of mine.

 

Society will always be judgemental--- unknown, friends and even family. Reality will always slap you in the face and shove you 6 feet underwater. Life will always you up. Everything will break you no matter what facade you put up. Somehow I question if someone ever appreciates how I really am; if someone actually needs me in their life; if my existence is actually essential for the world. But then again, no one ever cares. So be the best lover of yourself as you go on and try hard to live and meet expectations. Please don't ever worry if you're badly demented. It's okay if anxiety attacks you. Cry. We were never perfect to start with. Stand strong, don't let them shake you. No matter what hardship, you must not give them the pleasure of seeing your smile tainted. Continue being who you are--- you are your own anchor. Bloom in the midst of the storm and show how you are worth something. Your scars are experiences painted inside and out of your body. You are broken. But darling you have to know that the stars we see, gracing the massive night skies are dying--- and I have never seen someone so beautiful on such phase.

---comforting you, as well as myself

 

Kpop, to me, played a major role of fulfilling my sad world with colors despite the s the world dumps on me. It distracts me from my depression, gives me happiness, lessons and made me know my talents. It is my reality-break. Though temporary I don't think I would ever forsake it because I owe it a lot. I might have to inevitably grow up but I sure am going to continue as a fanwoman. I'll work hard because it told me everything pays off and every progress though small is still progress. Aside from the crazy ups and downs it experiences along with the inspirations it installed in my life, it also made me live it well--- thanks to the idols, fandoms & mutuals--- and it feels good to have someone who can relate to you. I hope it also does the same to my fellow fangirls. Kpop isn't just a genre. It heals.

---thanking kpop