Im usually a slient reader ( i know thats bad, but i have serious...inferior issues..). Hence, i apologise here before hand! 

The way i act in person, is usually how people wants me to act, not the way i want to act. All i can say is that rejection is not a nice experience. 

Actually, i seriously think im having split personality issues.

There are times i act like a bubbly idiot that just got high on candies for the upteempth times, 

and there are times i behaving like a sarcastic cold-blooded person who cant be bothered with anything other than reading stories and murdering my brain cells with anything i can come up with (like when im typing this thing).

i have socialphobia, and i in spelling. -.-"

which means, im afraid of people, im afraid of living things that fly (and insects), im afraid of confontations, im afraid of...

... you know what, lets just stick to 'im afraid of living things', its easier...