Y'all need some adorableness which only Changkyun & Hyungwon can provide:

Now you've been blessed! ^^

 

 

 

About me

I cry. A lot and over the dumbest things. I tend to overthink stuff and when I'm alone and frustrated it all comes out as tears. At such times I often cuddle myself into my bed, take my notebook and start writing fanfiction. I flee into my "own world" and imagine myself as part of the Harry Potter Universe with Monsta X or as part of the Soul Eater Universe.
About a year ago was when I had the probably worst time of my teenage years. I had many "friends". People who I talked with in school and wrote with on What's App. But unlike all of them I am not a fan of clubbing and drinking. And so I started to feel lonely and isolated as the only person who didn't drink and went clubbing and as the only one who liked Kpop and anime. Add my shy and unsure personality. I'm easily scared, not of horror-movies, but of everyday situations. In class, when I'm not sure whether my answer is right, I don't even try to answer because I'm afraid to be wrong and laughed at.
It was at that time when I skipped school for about 3 or 4 weeks, without my parents knowing if(they work the whole day) and the school probably thought I'm ill. I told my mother because I felt guilty, but after I went to school for a week again, all the fear and loneliness came back and I started skipping again. Another ten days spend at home without anyone knowing.
When my mom found out this time, we went to a therapist and now I'm meeting this therapist every three to four weeks. She says I have "social fears".
Now, one year later, I can happily say that I'm doing a lot better and not only because of the therapist.
In the beginning of this school year I made a few new friends. The ones I'm closest to now - Isa, Leni & Rami - and the ones I am a bit less but still very close too. They all love anime and some are even getting a slightly bit into Kpop. I don't feel lonely anymore and even though I don't like school, I always have something to look forwards too: seeing my friends.

I didn't write this because I want sympathy or anything similar. I want to tell you one thing I know through my own experience.
Being alone isn't okay. You may say "I'm okay. I don't need anyone to be happy." That's not true. We're humans. We need others, lonliness may seem okay for a while, but through the time things will get worse. Don't wait until you can't handle it.
Talk  to someone.
Fanfiction and Oppa won't help you - Don't forget reality.