My breath is sharp and ragged, but I don't care. My vision is blurry and I can't concentrate, but I don't care. I'm feeling nauseous, like I could pass out any minute now, but I don't care.   "L.joe! Open up now! Listen to me! I can help you! Please don't do this to yourself! Open up! For me!" No.... "L.joe! L.JOE!" "No! I don't want your help...." My best friend is calling, trying to help me, trying to save me from what I'v