차은호 IS TYPING...
✧ his sentiments
✧ his sentiments
scroll for more! every comment name linked to the video i found it in
SOMEWHERE INSIDE HIS PHONE,
INSIDE A CERTAIN NOTES FOLDER..
EUNHO WRITES HIS THOUGHTS,
THE ONES WHO WOULD NEVER REVEAL.
here they are...
"wtf, chanseok, you don't think i like to write?"
"idk, bro, you don't seem to be the type to be sentimental"
"well i know i can seem that way but nah, i'm soft boi."
"yeah, as much as you are a sad boi."
"if you weren't my best friend, i'd tell you to off"
(silvi's notes): just some scenarios i thought of a lot while i was unmotivated with eunho. then, i listen to these playlists korean accounts make and its korean comments struck deep with me so i copy-paste the comments while writing the scenarios around them. go check out the playlist though, it has a wonderful romantic ambiance and the korean people who leave comments were able to write these deep comments like i love how dreamy they were. then again, i might use korean comments from other playlists that i've linked in eunho's app. to be updated as more ideas come and go as they please.
You are the sun and the moon
I am the sky that embraces you
Thanks to you, everything was hot and cold
But it was also thanks to you that
I have stars shining in my eyes
There were dark clouds in my heart,
You become an orange glow and slowly colored me
My cheeks slowly reddened,
Letting out the scent of sweet tangerine.
During your twilight that comes back today
Without fail, as usual, I am ecstatic.
- comment by Jenny Lee -
the stars held different meaning to each individual. to some, it was a rare sighting in the midst of a highly poluted world. to some, it reminded them of their origins where the air was clear enough to see the stars. to lovers, stars were the finishing touch of the night sky as they looked into each other's eyes and whispered the sweet words and promises of affection to each other. to those working the night shift, stars reminded them of the lonely nights they had to endure wide awake as the city's people slowly drifted into sleep. to lonely souls, stars were their companions as they navigated their sleepless nights, slowly drowning in their own thoughts in search for comfort.
eunho always exclaimed whenever stars appeared in the seoul night sky. such sights were rare, unlike back in his hometown where the air was slightly fresher. he never put much meaning into stargazing but there was a certain someone who gave him a different meaning when he gazes at the stars.
wang eunbyul, the girl basically named after stars.
she told him once when they were on a drive together around seoul, "have you ever looked at the stars and wondered what it was like to look down on earth?" eunho chuckled. he could never guess the limit of eunbyul's imagination. "no, i don't but maybe, i'd go 'woah, where did it all go wrong? look at all this space trash' because ya' know, humans," he tried to answer within his logic and understanding. it was eunbyul's turn to chuckle. she always knew eunho would refer to his own views and opinions, even when faced with such an abstract question from her. eunbyul suddenly started giggling when eunho started to play all of the stars by ed sheeran through his car's bluetooth speaker. "how appropriate, cha eunho," she snickered as she leaned back in her seat and took a glance of him driving. eunho smiled.
"and i know these scars will bleed but both of our hearts believe, all of these stars will guide us home", the song in the background continued playing as they both enjoyed the comfortable silence between them.
at the sudden appearance of a past memory with eunbyul, eunho found himself dialing her on his phone. he mentally cursed himself and hoped that the girl was too busy to pick up. all was bad luck when eunbyul picked up before the last ring. "hello, eunho? why are you calling at this hour?" she answered in her usual voice, calm as the current autumn wind.
"n-no, nothing... i was just walking from studying at the library after my last class of the day..." he dragged his words, not knowing what to say since he's feeling bad for the sudden call.
"ah, and i'm here in my apartment..." she matched his word-dragging.
"just saw some stars appear tonight and thought we should drink on it" eunho could tell eunbyul was chuckling on the other side of the call.
"i trust my one bottle of beer is on you tonight, ho-ya" eunbyul found it fun to poke fun at eunho, he always had the best responses.
"on my way, sit tight," he said before exchanging short goodbyes.
the moment eunho hung up, eunbyul looked at her clock. ten o'clock at night. for eunbyul, the night was still young. she wasn't even doing anything when eunho called so she thought of it as a good thing. maybe, for once, she wouldn't be stargazing from her apartment alone. to see if eunho was right, she walked to her window to take a glance at the sky.
there were indeed stars in the sky and suddenly, eunbyul thought of the song eunho played on his car speaker that night. she decided to turn the song on to set the mood. all of the stars by ed sheeran.
"it's just another night and i'm staring at the moon, i saw a shooting star and thought of you," the first line of the song went. eunbyul smiled.
to eunbyul, cha eunho could possibly be the only one person in the world who could make her feel like she was more than a mere star in the sky. he could make her feel like she was both the sun and the moon as he was there for her day and night. even if he hated cold weather, he'd beat it out to find his way to her. he was like the sky that envelops her. he's just there.
without fail, he just comes back to her side and for that, as she usually is, eunbyul could never be more thankful for him.
eunho always exclaimed whenever stars appeared in the seoul night sky. such sights were rare, unlike back in his hometown where the air was slightly fresher. he never put much meaning into stargazing but there was a certain someone who gave him a different meaning when he gazes at the stars.
wang eunbyul, the girl basically named after stars.
she told him once when they were on a drive together around seoul, "have you ever looked at the stars and wondered what it was like to look down on earth?" eunho chuckled. he could never guess the limit of eunbyul's imagination. "no, i don't but maybe, i'd go 'woah, where did it all go wrong? look at all this space trash' because ya' know, humans," he tried to answer within his logic and understanding. it was eunbyul's turn to chuckle. she always knew eunho would refer to his own views and opinions, even when faced with such an abstract question from her. eunbyul suddenly started giggling when eunho started to play all of the stars by ed sheeran through his car's bluetooth speaker. "how appropriate, cha eunho," she snickered as she leaned back in her seat and took a glance of him driving. eunho smiled.
"and i know these scars will bleed but both of our hearts believe, all of these stars will guide us home", the song in the background continued playing as they both enjoyed the comfortable silence between them.
at the sudden appearance of a past memory with eunbyul, eunho found himself dialing her on his phone. he mentally cursed himself and hoped that the girl was too busy to pick up. all was bad luck when eunbyul picked up before the last ring. "hello, eunho? why are you calling at this hour?" she answered in her usual voice, calm as the current autumn wind.
"n-no, nothing... i was just walking from studying at the library after my last class of the day..." he dragged his words, not knowing what to say since he's feeling bad for the sudden call.
"ah, and i'm here in my apartment..." she matched his word-dragging.
"just saw some stars appear tonight and thought we should drink on it" eunho could tell eunbyul was chuckling on the other side of the call.
"i trust my one bottle of beer is on you tonight, ho-ya" eunbyul found it fun to poke fun at eunho, he always had the best responses.
"on my way, sit tight," he said before exchanging short goodbyes.
the moment eunho hung up, eunbyul looked at her clock. ten o'clock at night. for eunbyul, the night was still young. she wasn't even doing anything when eunho called so she thought of it as a good thing. maybe, for once, she wouldn't be stargazing from her apartment alone. to see if eunho was right, she walked to her window to take a glance at the sky.
there were indeed stars in the sky and suddenly, eunbyul thought of the song eunho played on his car speaker that night. she decided to turn the song on to set the mood. all of the stars by ed sheeran.
"it's just another night and i'm staring at the moon, i saw a shooting star and thought of you," the first line of the song went. eunbyul smiled.
to eunbyul, cha eunho could possibly be the only one person in the world who could make her feel like she was more than a mere star in the sky. he could make her feel like she was both the sun and the moon as he was there for her day and night. even if he hated cold weather, he'd beat it out to find his way to her. he was like the sky that envelops her. he's just there.
without fail, he just comes back to her side and for that, as she usually is, eunbyul could never be more thankful for him.
If you can see romance with your eyes,
it will be the color of the sunset.
Your face, which I suddenly saw
While walking on the road together,
Was so beautiful that the glow reflected on it,
That view in that moment was dazzling.
That's why I realized
That romance always breathes beside us
Through those little things,
Just like the sunset glowing every day.
- comment by 김정원 -
tba.
Riding on a calm wind one day,
I realized that the seeds of the thoughts of you
Came into my mind and stayed.
In the space that emptied over time,
Flowers as beautiful as your smile bloomed.
You who is my precious first love
That has to be treated with all my heart.
On the way to see you,
I'm soaked in thought and smiled
As I imagine a smile that will bloom on your face
When you receive a white rose
That is carefully held in my hand.
all flowers has its meanings, reflected in floriography that is the language of flowers. certain flowers convey or symbolize a different emotion or feeling. in each region or culture, the same flower can mean different things. that is the beauty of flowers, eunho remembered the local florist he grew up visiting in tongyeong would tell him as eunho would curiously ask the meaning of each flower before slowly being overwhelmed by the amount of meanings.
he was considered a legal adult now, having turned twenty. he was able to drink alcohol with his friends, try smoking cigarettes, go to bars or clubs, try some pickup lines to girls he barely knew and the part he enjoyed most of it was the fact that it signalled turning a new leaf. deep down, eunho doesn't care much about hookups, drunk mistakes and dumb decisions. turning twenty meant that he had the whole word to explore.
at least, that's how he's been rationalizing things at the moment.
he's supposed to be optimistic, excited and fearless towards his coming-of-age. yet, there he was, drowning himself in two bottles of hard liquor his brother bought last night. whiskey, one bottle of highland park and another of craigellachie. he could feel himself start to feel better, his mind somewhat lighter and his heart emptying slowly. he could barely imagine kwon sabin pop up in his thoughts. he let his eyes slowly close as he leaned his body to the sofa, begging to his mind not to think of his ex, his first love.
no, his mind betrayed him. the more eunho tried to swat her name and the memories away, the more they are slowly coming back so vivid and clear. eunho found himself dreaming of her again. he hated it every single time.
eunho was brought back to a warm saturday in the past when he was a highschool freshman. he woke up to the sound of his grandmother knocking on his door, reminding him of his date with sabin. he cursed under his breath before rushing to the bathroom to shower and got dressed in a hurry. everything he planned for today would be ruinned if he was late.
"grandma, how good do i look?" he asked as he sprayed some perfume he stole from howon's now vacant bedroom. he wanted to impress sabin.
"like how your grandfather looked when he proposed," his grandmother said before she tidied his tucked-in shirt and gave him a pat in the back.
eunho looked at his watch, thankfully he had an hour before the date. he had time to much on the toast his mother prepared for him. as he finished his toast, his father gave him a thumbs up when his mother wasn't looking, even going to the extent of passing him a mints candy. eunho could feel his ears reddened, just how much more embarrassing can his father get?
after hastily finishing his light breakfast even with his father's embarrassing gesture, eunho excused himself as he wore his shoes and went out. he could hear his mother shout, "treat her well or you're not welcomed back!"
eunho had one stop before he was going to the meeting point with sabin. he went to the local florist, run by kim byungho's mother who was particularly warm, welcoming and fond of him. he was welcomed by both byungho and his mom, the former cooed at his outfit while latter coming up to him for a hug.
"oh my, eunho, you look so handsome today! byungho, take some notes from your friend. maybe we can get more customers," byungho could only roll his eyes and dismiss his mother's comments. after all, his mother loved eunho. sometimes, he jokes that eunho is his mother's favorite son.
"thank you, auntie, i'm here to–" eunho's words were cut by byungho's mother exclaiming, "i already know, dear! byungho told me you need help picking out a flower for your girlfriend! sabin is a lucky princess, isn't she? she has you as her prince" eunho simply nodded as the praises caught him off guard, although he can't deny that the comment made him smile like a fool.
"of course, red roses are the number one to gift to your girlfriend! they literally mean passionate love. very romantic," byungho's mother
"it's not white day, sabin likes them on special occassions so maybe roses in another color would be better," byungho weighed in on the situation. eunho agreed. he already gave sabin a bouquet on white day with red roses and on may 14th, known as rose day or yellow day in korea, they exchanged roses. that day, he gave her orange roses while sabin gave him baby's breath. he knows that giving her roses may be a recurring theme by now, but at least, he could change up the colors every time.
"i'll take four white roses, please, auntie," eunho said quickly as he glanced at the time on his watch. thirty minutes before the date. it almost slipped from his mind that last night, sabin and him both agreed to wear white clothes today. he knew how she liked things that matched her clothes on the day-to-day, something about the aesthetics matching soothed her. he chose to buy four because the 'sa' in sabin's name can mean the number four.
byungho snapped his fingers before he moved to get the four white roses while his mother started to hum as she went to work on eunho's order. as if she was able to notice his restlessness, byungho's mother finished in double quick time. "go and pamper her royal highness," byungho teased eunho as he paid for the flowers at the cashier. eunho grunted and rolled his eyes. he wanted to wipe that -eating grin from byungho's face but he'd be late and eunho wouldn't want to upset her royal highness kwon sabin.
"have fun today, dear!" byungho's mother gushed as eunho stepped out of the florist to walk to the meeting point with sabin. he had enough time.
eunho smiled as he kept looking at the flowers he bought. he can already imagine the big grin on sabin's face when he gives them to her. all things aside, he was looking forward to just seeing sabin again. as he walked closer to the meeting point, he was relieved sabin hadn't arrived yet. it made his planned surprise with the flowers more exciting.
"chacha!" he could hear her voice a few minutes later. he looked to the direction of her voice and saw her in a cute white dress. he swiftly hid the flowers behind his back as he waved at her. she had a huge grin as she knew he was hiding something behind his back. eunho told her to guess. sabin rejected, "i want to know what it is now." eunho can never say no to her.
as he expected, sabin had the biggest smile as she received the roses.
"four for 'sa', very detail-oriented, cha eunho, you're doing great already!" she beamed as she observed the roses before linking arms with him.
eunho was suddenly awaken from the dreams of his past memories as a sudden but well timed phone call caused his loud ringtone to play.
with his half-open eyes, he glanced at the contact name. byungho. he declined his friend's call, taking a mental note to apologize for declining the initial calls and to call byungho back when he's sobered up.
eunho cursed under his breath, "byungho, you ."
he was considered a legal adult now, having turned twenty. he was able to drink alcohol with his friends, try smoking cigarettes, go to bars or clubs, try some pickup lines to girls he barely knew and the part he enjoyed most of it was the fact that it signalled turning a new leaf. deep down, eunho doesn't care much about hookups, drunk mistakes and dumb decisions. turning twenty meant that he had the whole word to explore.
at least, that's how he's been rationalizing things at the moment.
he's supposed to be optimistic, excited and fearless towards his coming-of-age. yet, there he was, drowning himself in two bottles of hard liquor his brother bought last night. whiskey, one bottle of highland park and another of craigellachie. he could feel himself start to feel better, his mind somewhat lighter and his heart emptying slowly. he could barely imagine kwon sabin pop up in his thoughts. he let his eyes slowly close as he leaned his body to the sofa, begging to his mind not to think of his ex, his first love.
no, his mind betrayed him. the more eunho tried to swat her name and the memories away, the more they are slowly coming back so vivid and clear. eunho found himself dreaming of her again. he hated it every single time.
eunho was brought back to a warm saturday in the past when he was a highschool freshman. he woke up to the sound of his grandmother knocking on his door, reminding him of his date with sabin. he cursed under his breath before rushing to the bathroom to shower and got dressed in a hurry. everything he planned for today would be ruinned if he was late.
"grandma, how good do i look?" he asked as he sprayed some perfume he stole from howon's now vacant bedroom. he wanted to impress sabin.
"like how your grandfather looked when he proposed," his grandmother said before she tidied his tucked-in shirt and gave him a pat in the back.
eunho looked at his watch, thankfully he had an hour before the date. he had time to much on the toast his mother prepared for him. as he finished his toast, his father gave him a thumbs up when his mother wasn't looking, even going to the extent of passing him a mints candy. eunho could feel his ears reddened, just how much more embarrassing can his father get?
after hastily finishing his light breakfast even with his father's embarrassing gesture, eunho excused himself as he wore his shoes and went out. he could hear his mother shout, "treat her well or you're not welcomed back!"
eunho had one stop before he was going to the meeting point with sabin. he went to the local florist, run by kim byungho's mother who was particularly warm, welcoming and fond of him. he was welcomed by both byungho and his mom, the former cooed at his outfit while latter coming up to him for a hug.
"oh my, eunho, you look so handsome today! byungho, take some notes from your friend. maybe we can get more customers," byungho could only roll his eyes and dismiss his mother's comments. after all, his mother loved eunho. sometimes, he jokes that eunho is his mother's favorite son.
"thank you, auntie, i'm here to–" eunho's words were cut by byungho's mother exclaiming, "i already know, dear! byungho told me you need help picking out a flower for your girlfriend! sabin is a lucky princess, isn't she? she has you as her prince" eunho simply nodded as the praises caught him off guard, although he can't deny that the comment made him smile like a fool.
"of course, red roses are the number one to gift to your girlfriend! they literally mean passionate love. very romantic," byungho's mother
"it's not white day, sabin likes them on special occassions so maybe roses in another color would be better," byungho weighed in on the situation. eunho agreed. he already gave sabin a bouquet on white day with red roses and on may 14th, known as rose day or yellow day in korea, they exchanged roses. that day, he gave her orange roses while sabin gave him baby's breath. he knows that giving her roses may be a recurring theme by now, but at least, he could change up the colors every time.
"i'll take four white roses, please, auntie," eunho said quickly as he glanced at the time on his watch. thirty minutes before the date. it almost slipped from his mind that last night, sabin and him both agreed to wear white clothes today. he knew how she liked things that matched her clothes on the day-to-day, something about the aesthetics matching soothed her. he chose to buy four because the 'sa' in sabin's name can mean the number four.
byungho snapped his fingers before he moved to get the four white roses while his mother started to hum as she went to work on eunho's order. as if she was able to notice his restlessness, byungho's mother finished in double quick time. "go and pamper her royal highness," byungho teased eunho as he paid for the flowers at the cashier. eunho grunted and rolled his eyes. he wanted to wipe that -eating grin from byungho's face but he'd be late and eunho wouldn't want to upset her royal highness kwon sabin.
"have fun today, dear!" byungho's mother gushed as eunho stepped out of the florist to walk to the meeting point with sabin. he had enough time.
eunho smiled as he kept looking at the flowers he bought. he can already imagine the big grin on sabin's face when he gives them to her. all things aside, he was looking forward to just seeing sabin again. as he walked closer to the meeting point, he was relieved sabin hadn't arrived yet. it made his planned surprise with the flowers more exciting.
"chacha!" he could hear her voice a few minutes later. he looked to the direction of her voice and saw her in a cute white dress. he swiftly hid the flowers behind his back as he waved at her. she had a huge grin as she knew he was hiding something behind his back. eunho told her to guess. sabin rejected, "i want to know what it is now." eunho can never say no to her.
as he expected, sabin had the biggest smile as she received the roses.
"four for 'sa', very detail-oriented, cha eunho, you're doing great already!" she beamed as she observed the roses before linking arms with him.
eunho was suddenly awaken from the dreams of his past memories as a sudden but well timed phone call caused his loud ringtone to play.
with his half-open eyes, he glanced at the contact name. byungho. he declined his friend's call, taking a mental note to apologize for declining the initial calls and to call byungho back when he's sobered up.
eunho cursed under his breath, "byungho, you ."
Thank you,
After I knew you,
Every moment of my life has changed
A lot more than before.
The days we've known each other
Has somehow already reached ten years.
Thanks for sharing all my moments and feelings.
It's a miracle I met you.
Stay with us in the future.
- comment by 히히히 -
tba.
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