track 1  curious, original, authentic, independent

proud, stubborn, aloof, contrarian  track 2

mash-up  inferiority-superiority complex, unique is better than better, ""not like other girls""

CHAPTER ONE: AUTHENTICITY, UNIQUENESS, NON-COMOFRMATIVITY AND THE HEART OF TSAI JIAHUI.

korean workbooks piled up over the mixing console, her laptop clock strikes 5:40 a.m, inching closer to a sunrise she won't get to see. that's jiahui, secluded in the studio, munching on an apple as she resumes yesterday's work. the other trainees are fast asleep or wrapping up practice by now and she could be, too. she could get more sleep and have breakfast with the other girls if she gave up on her "unnecessary" desire to produce, like lee taejun wants her to. but she doesn't mind. she would honestly much rather be here. 

she belongs here, that's why. she prefers to be sorrounded by music, being creative and revelling in her own company, than to simply join the pack of girls. besides, large groups of people don't get her and tend to reject what makes her different and unique. her thoughts are confusing to them. her priorities, skewed. her need to find deeper meanings is frustrating and her mannerisms and jokes are "4D".

she's getting a bit stuck on this song, which is hard to admit. this is the downside of being alone at the studio at this hour: no one is awake to help you except yourself. and she's going to help herself work on this bridge until she's satisfied. this is the indepndence of tsai jiahui, relying on herself and herself only, and her stubbornness too. she's too stubborn. 

stubborn is what drew her to composing, though. that and her curiosity. jiahui is proud of thinking for herself, not taking things as they come. she'll never pass up an opportunity to learn, which is why she took up composing: to grow as an artist. the korean pop music industry is robotic and repetitive, yes, but it's more than that. if she has the chance to contribute to that creative side of kpop and come into her own as an idol musician, how could she not take it?

suddenly, she gets an idea. this won't work within conventional song structure patterns and it might be complicated to fit it into what she already has, but jiahui wants to go with it particularly because it's weird. it's her. her song is gonna be weird and it's gonna be good.

CHAPTER TWO: CAGE. THE ARMOR OF TSAI JIAHUI, THE DESIRE TO BE SPECIAL AND THE PAIN OF BEING ALONE. 

"good job. i think it's mainstream enough, you should show this to lee taejun," cheolhyun says when she plays the track for him. jiahui is a bit surprised by that, she doesn't know how to react. she's used to being misunderstood, the underdog, so jiahui assumes people will think the worst of her and her work. it's okay, though, because it means she treasures the people who do appreciate her to the fullest and because she doesn't care: she's proud of being authentic.

however, jiahui doesn't realize her pride comes largely from a place of hurt. she shouts how different and misunderstood she is from the rooftops because they can't hurt her if she never plays their game, if she never puts herself out there to be vulnerable and judged. she's different and she doesn't care, that's her battle armor. behind it, she hides that she's still lonely, that it hurts when people stay away from this isolated and pretentious contrarian that she's become. she does care. so she needs to be different, to prove she's special, because great weirdos endure great pain. she can't not be different or not be great at this point because how else will all the hurting be worth it?

(so is it worth it?)

jiahui is born an only child to two loving parents in taoyuan, taiwan. a curious kid, but so very quiet. it worries her parents for quite some time until they stumble across a cheat code: music. it makes her eyes light up and it gest her to talk to anyone. from playing instruments to singing and dancing around the house, the young girl opens up through art (and later on literature) so much it's unvelievable. it seems easier, in a way, to express herself in school plays or piano recitals, than it is by using mere words.

her family is as proud as ever, but the kids at school don't seem to get jiahui's breakthroughs. she's the girl who's always by herself and never talks. extracurriculars fill up her schedule so she rarely partakes in playdates or birthday parties and, when she does socialize, she uses words no one in her class understands. she likes books, that's why —who even likes books?—. jiahui, who's also chubby to boot, gets called fat, ugly and weird. she's just so weird to them. it's awful. she hates not being able to fit in. she hates being like this. it takes her a while to find comfort in the idea of being different, but she does. she realizes she doesn't want to be like them. she's special, meant for better. 

around junior high she discovers kpop, right before everyone else in her grade does. jiahui is completely immersed in this unique bubble of a music industry. she's really drawn to the fantasy of life as a kpop singer. as a fantasy, of course. being taiwanese, that's all she can do. unfortunately, that same year kpop blows up in taiwan and all the popular girls in her grade sing along to exo and snsd. of course they do. jiahui is disappointed and hurt when she can't fit into any friend groups at her new performing arts school. she tells herself she doesn't care. people have never understood her anyways. 

supposedly unbothered, she crawls back to kpop for comfort and this time she notices something: taiwanese members. they're multiplying. the more she thinks about it, the more jiahui sees herself training to become a kpop star. she wants other things in life too, like going to college and publishing a book, but she knows deep inside her that she has to try. she has to try to stand on stage to prove how special weirdos like her are, how great they can be. and she does. she googles every agency that debuted taiwanese or chinese trainees and emails her audition tape to each and every one.

the one mainstream artist she will proudly admit to liking with her whole chest is jolin tsai. she's a queen, unindisputed. she's had an illustrious career in both taiwan and mainland china and she's never been afraid of pursuing new artistic directions and reinventing herself. queen. 

aside from jolin, she likes to say she doesn't stan groups or artists, she just enjoys specific songs.

thinks that lune blue>>lune black. like her, the blue girls are underdogs coming from all over the industry, so of course they're a more unique team than lune black, which she thinks is more homogenous and manufactured. she doesn't purposely go out of her way to treat the lune black girls worse, she only thinks lune blue is theoretically the better sub-unit
(she is obviously in for a rude awakening about who the underdogs really are and who actually is the manufactured group).

proud of being taiwanese. jiahui thinks her country has immense potential in the pop music industry too. 

to her, the worst direction her career could take would be strictly promoting in mainland china.

she can play the guzheng and the piano. she used to know how to play the pipa.

throughout her life, she's taken hip-hop, dai dance and contemporary dance classes. she learnt a bit of ballet in senior high school too, before moving to korea.

jiahui majored in dance during high school. that, puberty, and now dieting like an idol/idol trainee, has completely slimmed down her body, but the downside is she doesn't have a lot of muscle.

favors non-trendy beats and unconventional song structure in her songs. loves bridges and she'll be damned if she makes a boring one. trap is her #1 enemy, but she does dabble in edm.

loves creative writing. short stories are her favorite. 

not a fan of cheese. cheese tteokbokki is out of the question. please don't.

jiahui's style is basically anything that's unconventional, fake deep, or commits fully to a specific sound/style. songs that i imagine her producing are:

pantomime (originally by wjsn)
silent night (originally by dreamcatcher)
katchup (orig. by dalsooobin)
kazino (orig. bibi)
is who (orig. minseo)
zero (orig. minseo)
windy day (orig. oh my girl)
black or white (orig. dreamcatcher)
galaxy (orig. ladies' code)
the rain (orig. ladies' code)
circle's dream (orig. dalsooobin)
       new additions!
archangels of the sephiroth (orig. stellar)
la di da (orig. everglow)

and if the girls ever do a japanese mini-album, light my fire (originally by (g)i-dle)