Hello, this is sejùn.

I am here writing this after editing the whole story and honestly, as I read and edited this embarrassing fic, I finally realised how I ate (like in a way I really read them) fics instead of novels at this time.

So let us talk about the fic that I hated and regretted writing the most no matter how hard I try, Rookie.

Please don't read this also embarrassing rambling of mine if you haven't read that. This will just confuse you if you continue without context.

Writing this fic at an age where I am either having sensible thoughts or just spewing a bunch of bull, I thought the content I was about to make would satisfy my desires to write some fantasy I hated—for 's sake, it ended up being the worst.

So the idea for the fic, or I would say prompt, was formulated through that one tweet with 'Model Kai waited for Designer Kyungsoo, but he got disappointed when he did not show up at the afterparty' (I don't remember the exact words, I'm sorry) and attached is black-clad Jongin in Elle Style Awards. And honestly, when I think about it, the whole plot of my story does not coincide with that prompt—it's like someone gave me a hint on a problem and then I used it to solve it via a wrong way.

Anyway, I have a deep-rooted hate for it. Not only this is poorly-researched, it also has bad grammar and missing words (which I commonly do as always). As for poor researching (which is quite a surprise because our group finished our research), I mainly relied on those IGTV videos of Dior hand bag-making and those Barbie movies (yes, you read that right). I just can't believe how much bull I ate writing this.

Bad grammar is not really an shocking issue for me, because English is my third language and that although I can read, write, and speak it, my brain would not cooperate. But now that I am (not technically) a highschool graduate and has the motivation to edit this, I realised that it is a mess.

And finally, the missing words in my sentences. This is common to my fics, and not a single fic of mine has survived without missing a word or two. This sounds like an excuse, but you know, I have that tendency to say the sentence in my head while not writing some words. I forget such things, but not my plots.

Also, the plot is a mess...Truth to be told, I was planning to shock everyone by revealing Jongin's dad is Kyungsoo's biological father and that Jongin is actually from an orphanage, but remembering my Christian Humanity lesson, loving your step-brother is yeehaw energy and I don't want that in my fic, so instead I immediately made a U-turn which is boring, and actually that scene where they eat together with their parents is unnecessary, but I didn't remove it. At this point, I don't care.

Can I also tell you how it took two years to complete this fic? It's because I've decided to rewrite it because I was unsatisfied (or rather, I don't know which direction I was going then) and actually, it ended up having draining my motivation. I was used to writing in Microsoft Word in 2017, writing that discontinued Yuri on Ice fic with a 2000+ plus word limit every chapter, and honestly that pushed me into writing more ery than the plot.

And the crackfic tag. I had the intention of writing this as a crackfic, but ended up being serious. Welp, will delete.

So overall, what are my thoughts? Honestly, I had a plan to delete this for a while, but I decided not to. I got surprised when it got readers despite it being a ty fic. On my AO3 account, it's the highest with 10K reads, which is an alarming news to me. After thinking, I've decided not to. As for the motivation I had with it, I can say that I've been very lazy in updating, since my attention is focused on either the triple m (mangas, manhwas, and manhuas), my group of friends (which is a miracle for me), or highschool (it's more challenging since it's university). Needless to say, I was most focused on my academics because I failed a subject, but I managed to get back. It's also amazing how I managed writing these words in a span of 30 minutes, unlike my fics, which take an hour to write 200 words.

But as much as I hate this fic, I deeply appreciate everyone who read, voted up, subscribed and commented on Rookie. I always read your comments whenever I write a new chapter. Lol, I sound like I'm some author, but I somehow wish one day I'll become one, because that's one of my dreams aside becoming a comic artist (I am oversharing already). But anyways, as I write this, I finally realised that most of my romance fics always end up in weddings... god... so embarrassing... but anyway, thank you for reaching this far. For reading my very rookie fanfiction.

So yes, thank you for reading Rookie! To the next, ty KaiSoo fic I'll write!