Dear K,

How are you? This is another shot in the dark to you. I really don’t know how to reach you out. I just can write to you from this blog, hoping that someday you would come across and read it.

i miss you so much. I miss having a deep convo with you, sharing all our worries and concerns. Your aspiration and life goals. To read your stories about your day, or about the girl that you like.

once you told me that your friends looked down on you because the way to you were treated by your ex-es; always act like a dog to his master, begging for love. K, sometimes people like you, who has sincere heart and genuine feelings, act like that. You think that people are the same as you, nice and generous. But people are not like that. But you will learn. 

K, it has been a while since I can open up and be true with myself. And I could do that with you. I will tell you again this; you were my sanctuary. I always be the person who people lean to, who people will tell their stories to. But I forgot that I also need someone who would listen to my worries. And you were that person. 

K, 

a month ago, I was frustrated from missing you. You were gone MIA for weeks. I was overthinking and the first thing I did when we talked again that day was to ask for your confirmation. The way I address those curiosity wasn’t in place, it was confrontational and hurtful. And now, I lost a very meaningful and important friend to me.

you said, “im nothing but a stranger that you met online.”

k, do you think it was wrong of me to be greedy and wanted you to be my friend for real? To finally meet you in person, to know you better? I didn’t have any intentions but to offer you a sincere and genuine friendship. 

Today, your account will be permanently deleted. Do I have to say good bye to you now? But I still wish that you would talk to me again and to trust me again. You know who I am, and where I am at.