Why am I so depressed?

Why is it Super Junior related?

I really want to get to know them better but why am I still stuck with their old personalities years ago ??

I think I am going to cry :(

I don't know and I think I am a pretty bad fan of Super Junior.

I mean, the only variety show I watch of theirs is EHB & the rest I can't even watch it yet.

I rewatched EHB a few times but that was them years ago.

I want to be updated and watch the newer ones to know them better, not just the same old personality they had years ago.

They might change from the one I knew before and that's what I want to know; I want to know who they are like now, their thoughts and feelings.

I want the old times back; where there was only 13, the 13 happy and loving members of Super Junior in the EHB show ...

Another thing...

I know lots of you out there are lovers of all 15 Super Junior members,

whereas I tend to stick with the 13 original members...

 I love all 15 too, but I love the 13 more.

I guess it's because I don't know Zhoumi & Henry as much :(
That's also one of my weakness? No, one reason why I feel like that - all ... actually, I dont even know how to describe that feeling.

But you get what I mean ~

I want to love all 15

But I can't at the moment.

Somehow.

Aigoo.

I am all messed up.

But, theres more *looks down*

Omo what am I saying?

You all will be like, "What the heck is she talking about?!"

I'm sorry for taking your time, I guess I have this uncomfortable feeling on for so long now and I just need to express it ...

And one that triggered me the most;

The one event that made me push all these thoughts out the most;

One thing that caused me fuss ...

Is the We Got Married new couples .........

My FOUR TOP BIASES ...

Kyuhyun

Eunhyuk

Donghae

Sungmin

They are going to be in We Got Married;

They are going to be paired up.

Paired up with people I have no idea of.

If they are paired up with SNSD

I am fine with that.

Any other person / band, and I'm getting my book ready to whack their heads off :))

Im joking.

Aish I shouldnt even be saying that bad thing.

What's wrong with me?

I'm bored.

I'm tired.

I'm sad.

I'm ...

Nothing >.<

Anyhow, I seriously do not want the 4 Super Junior members in WGM to be paired up so .....

Yuckyly [if that even is a word, most likely not] >.<

-Sighs-

I wish they weren't

I know there may be lots of opposers to this

But this is how I feel

I like my Super Junior oppas

I like them very much!

I do not want to sound possessive or over-protective or anything.

I'm just an innocent girl who really hasn't yet entered that stage where I can let go of someone who I cherish so dearly...

Someone like Super Junior

Someone like Sungmin, Kyuhyun, Eunhyuk, Donghae [& Ryeowook]

Someone who has brought new things in my life and making them fun :)

LOL again, what am I saying?

-sighs-

I feel just like this afternoon.

I should be happy and relieved that my poster request wasn't messed up.

But that time, even though it was good news ...

Why am I still so sad & depressed ?

Why am I still so quiet and still?

I didn't bother type.

I didn't bother chat.

I didn't bother to smile.

I didn't bother eating.

Which eventually I did.

I ate less.

Something's been getting into me lately.

I've been eating less.

For some reason.

I used to eat a lot.

Like a pig.

A big fat greedy pig who puts a whole chunk of food in her bowl :))

*breathes*

But now, I guess because I'm fat

& want to slim down

that I'm reducing my meals ?

Like today, I ate ........

A little square piece of white chocolate.

Seriously, it was like, 1cm by 1cm, or one third an inch by one third an inch.

And also a chocolate finger.

What else did I eat?

I think that was my breakfast.

And then I cleaned my room ...

Slowly ...

For some reason I don't know ...

And then the news came in.

Anyhow; let's just skip all that shall we?

Lunch.

I ate like a little-ish bowl of rice with 3 pieces of meat and soup.

Dinner.

I skipped.

Snacks?

Another piece of white chocolate the same size. An another chocolate finger.

That's all.

Aish my life ~

Hehe :)

Ok, enough about all this rubbish that no one's gonna read.

It's almost 12:30am now.

I got to wake up early tomorrow; probably 8:00am ?

Yes in my dictionary; 8:00 is an early time for the holidays!

Although I do wake up at that time during school ~

But then, it's called

LATE

Anyhow ............

I've blabbed on too much.

Off to sleep.

Off to DreamLand.

or

LaLaLand.

or Whatever you call it.

BaiBai my dearies :)

My bed awaits :))

No seriously, don't think wrong :P

I wish for so much .....

[Ok, that was random]

Goodnight everyone :)

-Cindy-