My current status and dilemma
So I finally decided to come back to the site because it has been far too long since I have updated or wrote anything. I was really excited to come back since I was really looking forward to writing a new piece. Now I'm not really sure what I should do.
I have two ideas for stories one has already been planned out extensively until the end and I even have a few chapters written ready to be posted. However, it's not coming out the way that I thought it would. There's not enough YongSeo in the beginning, and there probably won't be until the middle. I mean, those of you who have read my two previous stories should know that I haven't been an author that puts them together right at the beginning. I usually put that around the middle. However I usually put a little interaction between the characters to set it up. This story could be so good, but I just don't know what I should do about it. From how I began to write it, there's no way to put in a YongSeo interaction until they begin to fall for each other. Even then, the part where they fall for each other is just kind of out of nowhere. I can't help but feel like I wasted my time writing it all out since I don't think it would be a good idea to put it up in its current state. I am fond of this story though since I can relate to the feelings Yonghwa has for Seohyun. That's why I'm a Loner was so easy to write, because I could put some of my character into the story and just write what I felt. I really looked forward to writing the second half of the story but I just can't bring myself to write the beginning. From the four chapters I already have written, I was bored out of my mind reading it.
My other story is a little better in terms character interaction, but I don't have first hand experience to back up the characters feelings. I mean, I guess not every story someone writes has their own personal experience, but it does make it easier to write. This story however is just a big bunch of ideas and I haven't even outlined it. This story will have YongSeo interactions from beginning to end pretty much and I think it will be the better of the two stories.
To make matters worse, I deleted one of my stories and put the other one on hiatus. I'm almost tempted to even delete that remaining story too. Arranged Happiness could have been one hell of a story. Sadly, I don't have the skills to write it all out. For a dark, twisted, and complicated story that it was becoming, I couldn't keep up. It was just not my kind of thing. Gomawo Chingu Yah was a predictable story from the moment that I told everyone it was based off of something. Even though I was putting my own little twists on it, it wasn't really my story to begin with which made it a little too annoying to write. Sorry to any of those who really wanted to see either of those two stories.
Now I need advice from whoever is reading this. What should I do? I know it's hard to ask something so vague of everyone, but I'm just so lost. I wish I could just write like I did with I'm a Loner and make an awesome story for everyone but I can't do that anymore. I'm afraid that the success of that story will be my only one since I just can't find some place to start with anything anymore.
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