Alright so these past few days...haven't been as great as I thought it would be. Last Wednesday, my cousin died and two days ago, it was his burial.

I don't know if you guys ever experienced losing your loved ones but I can tell you this, it hurts. It seriously does.

It just felt so haunting to see someone you were close to lying still in a coffin. It felt even weirder seeing his name engraved onto an urn. After all that has happened, I don't think I can ever forget how peaceful he looked. He was one of the cousins in my family.

When he passed away, it also made me realize something. He was always an alcoholic. Getting all the money he could get to gamble. Although he wasn't really a saint, he was still family. He was a part of my life and his name would forever be etched in my mind.

It just hurts that I won't be able to listen to any of his corny jokes or his stories of when he was younger. Now, we're praying for my grandmother, who's about 87 years old, and asking God to give us more time.

I hope you guys would understand if I don't update as frequently as before.

I'll see you all soon, bye.