Accused as a Saesang? And Choices?
So I have two things to discuss.... One There is this girl (im in Seattle Since I gradurated.) My Ex Best Friend who is a big fan of One Direction and 5sos came up to me and said "Oh... Eungyeol You like kpop? that means You are a Saesang or Whatever the heck they are?"
Like I know I moved to Korea.. But I DON'T follow kpop band members EVERYWHERE 24/7.. But she litterally said I did.. I'm so angry about it.. You wouldn't even imagine. I mean... Let me rephrase that.. I'm not ANGRY angry. I'm just kind of upset.. Since she was once my bestfriend.. and She was able to accuse me as a Saesang.. JUST cause Imma a Kpopper..
I don't know how she thinks ALL kpop fans are Saesangs... Like Whatever... I'm not going to argue with her.
On the other note.. Which I have a feeling may sadden you guys.. And you guys may be telling me "NO Don't GO!"...But Hear me out first, before you start going to conclusions...
I know I just celebrated my 3rd year anniversary here on AFF. And For that I'm Happy.. For everything...
But I'm thinking of, Deactivating this account... Maybe forever, I don't know... I know, I know.. my stories..... I feel so bad for my suscribers.. But I'm still thinking.. And I'm sorry I missed the date I was supposed to update.. my stories.. But I'm sorry.. I've been so stressed out lately.. that I forgot.... I'm sorry...
But I'm thinking of, Deactivating this account... Maybe forever, I don't know... I know, I know.. my stories..... I feel so bad for my suscribers.. But I'm still thinking.. And I'm sorry I missed the date I was supposed to update.. my stories.. But I'm sorry.. I've been so stressed out lately.. that I forgot.... I'm sorry...
But I feel an off. I mean I still AM into kpop so it's not me getting out of it... But I feel everything has been holding me down lately.
Stupid school, Stupid mom and Stupid judgey aunts and uncles.
I don't want to go onto detail on here.. since it's SO personal and I don't need pity right now... haha.
I'm still thinking.. so don't worry.. I WILL warn you guys if I choose to leave here.
And if I do... I will probably transfer my stories to My Wattpad Account, Qoutev account and or any of my other accounts.... But I don't know... I just need time to wrap my head around this...
But whatever I choose, I hope you support my choice. Although I think My friends on here (YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE GIRLIES) Will probably message me and tell me not too.. Even if they do support me. And I feel thankful for all the people who read my stories, Suscribed, Upvoted and commented. The friends on here who stuck by my side and helped me through ups and downs..
Whatever I choose, I hope you know... that I will never forget any of you guys, my memorys here.
I feel I got better at Writing through Asianfanfics.com and this may be the saddest goodbye I could make to the site that made me a better writer and leaving my friends who stayed right by me in AFF. I will Never forget anything, I'm sure of it.. I don't feel like really exaplaining the personal reason why.. But simply on the side I can tell you.. is that I just feel like my stupid problems with what I told you already.. Is giving me all these ideas for fanfics. And I have a feeling your thinking "If it's giving you ideas why don't you write?" Well I'll tell you this... I feel like some of my stories are getting neglected and that When I DO have Ideas I feel like you guys may not like what I put down...
And I don't know if My writing style is just plain stupid. Or if you guys actually follow the concept of what I'm saying. (I hope its the latter) But I just feel like I'm not cut out for this.. And I feel my writing isn't good enough..
And then the problems with school, aunts and uncles and MY MOM. I feel they are making it kind of hard to be myself. I feel like I'm mostly hiding behind a mask that I forcefully sewed on... :( And it hurts...
I'm not gonna exaplain my personal issues with my family on here. All you gotta know is that MY brothers have nothing to do with this and not even Justin (GalaxyKristyeol13) So it's okay.. You don't have to go and bash them... (If you want the full story... Please PM me..)
I'm sorry, I have to bring this sad news to the table..
~ Thank you so much..
- Slyent - Yehet (Previously known as 'Zeldamato12)
P.S. AGAIN.. I'm still thinking.... so please don't go and think that I'm leaving like today or tomorrow or something.. After I wrapped my head around what I WANT to do, I will tell you guys ahead of time. K?
Wo Ai Ni!~
Mianhe....
I'm Also posting my storys on wattpad already (ON DARFTS) Just in case something happens to THIS site, or what ever I choose.
Basically, i have two copies lol...
But I'm moving "Wind Beneath My Wings" To WATTPAD.COM and Deleting it from here. So if you read it.. It will be on there.
So is "The Fox Demons" or any of my other stories. Although The Fox Demons is finished LOL.
But I will Only be deleting from AFF My darfts of Stories that arent published and also the Story Wind beneath my wings.
But don't worry... If anything happens to this site or what ever I choose. You could always read My stories on Wattpad or Qoutev.com
:) :)
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