So as you probably know, I am a gay fanboy.

Being a gay fanboy is, you could say, fun. I don't know how  it'd be any different from being a straight fanboy, but that's not really the issue here. As I said, being a gay fanboy is fun, but sometimes I feel like I have to hide that. I feel like society constricts me and forbids me to act the way I want to. I'm afraid to express myself online, to people I don't know, because I'm scared they might not be as accepting as my friends. 

Sometimes though, I wonder if society is doing this to me, or I'm doing it to myself. I tell myself that I'm being too conscious of what I do, and to be honest, I think I really am. Maybe I'm constricting myself, and using society as an excuse for that. 

I don't know what to think anymore. I'm sad that I can't express myself online, because I'm afraid of being judged. WILL I be judged though? I don't even know anymore. What do you guys think?