Hi everyone. I'm Ash. Maybe this will not be your concern but I just wanted to share my story and what's going happened to me around this year (2014).

First of all, I'm a Muslim. If you wonder why I did read and writing stories about them, actually it is my fault and I'm not totally supporting the fiction of . For me, this fanfiction world just my imagination (it's bad, right?)

*If you reallywonder about that, I will give you the answer. :)

**I'm not a monster and I'm not eating you, if you ask me. Just please respect each other. Just be yourself.

Okay, let's have another story.

In 2013, I got straight A's for my examination and it was a dream for every intelligent students to enter SBP or MRSM (elite schools). And yeah, after I got the result, I thought that I will get one of (SBP or MRSM) schools but not. Sometimes in our life we can't be very confident and I don't give up. I wanted to cry when everyone ask me, *"What did you get for your best results?" they will say that... *"I got Iphone and you?"

It's not that my family is poor or not but it's look like a burden for them. Can you count how much things that they gave to you? When they ask that*, my answer is ... "I got what I want. They smiled when I got the best result and when I'd be the best student in the school." 

In January, I have a conflict with my friends. It's hurt to think what they have done to me, but as a Muslim, I must forgive them because I know, when you treat people well, they will treat you well back. Trust me and I did.

I'm entering an ordinary school because yeah, it's not my luck to get the elite school even I'd be the best student in my previous school. What can I do? I just thinking... maybe it'll be better here than I'll be an elite student which lack of behave well (because I'm easy to follow otherpeople's behaviour and my parents did worry about that a lot.) Until I found that I'm not interested with sciences. So I find another way...

20 January of 2014, I decided to enter an Engineering school or technics school (in Malaysia, we call it Sekolah Menengah Teknik) I was happy and yeah, I got Civil Engineering Course. 

But life is not that easy, I had some problems with friends. We fight so much until I found someone who is being treated badly by her dorm mates. I felt lucky because my dorm mates are so kind and nice. I decided to help her and I feel something is wrong with me. 

I never know that being friend with people was this nice. I'm always being bullied when I was in my previous school and my parents didn't know about that. 

She really makes me and even sometimes, she was a jerk (sorry), she never leave me alone. She will pats my shoulder and say, "I will be always with you. You're the one, who is really kind to me." Can you feel it when someone we did say she was a jerk but she's the only one who wanted be our friends?

My heart was hurt a lot. I did fall in love with someone. He's my best friend and we did always talking together until other students said us as a couple. I'm not interested with relationship actually. That's my goal for another years but I failed. I left him because I don't want to get hurt anymore. you know what, I like him but he just like me as a friend. Just a friend.

Students in my school were rich and I'm not from one of them. They did talk about their vacation in Paris or somewhere else. I want it too but when I'm thinking about my parents, I know it'll not be a reality. It's just a dream. I tried to find another way. I found it. *Get a scholarship*

Everyone know that it was impossible but at least, I wanted to try it. I wanted to make my parents proud. My father has a friend and he has a daughter with same age with me. I'm not hating him but I hate the way he treats my father and he always asking about me and how my result was? 

Okay, my result was bad this year. I'm not be able to catch up what teachers though me and I have a lot of stress in that school honestly. What can I do? I can't do anything except pray. Pray is the key to get something you want. Believe, when you are praying, you can feel that your heart is very peaceful and make friends with intelligent people. 

I think it was enough. This is just my sharing. Feel free to ask me anything.

-Ash-

Goodbye 2014, Hello 2015.

Tomorrow is better than yesterday.

Pray for my SPM. I really wanted to get 10A+ and the scholarship. *Japan, I'm coming!*