Hi everyone.

I haven't been around a lot lately and I apologize.

I don't know how to write this or describe my feelings it's, been a thing I've been struggling with a lot the past few years. I know you want me to complete writing my stroies and update regularly, but I can't. 

Please read this till the end.

For the past five years I have struggled with depression and other things, life has slowly turned to grey in my eyes, everyday there was a struggle whether it's mentally or physically. The first 3 years were tough but I stood my ground and fought back my depression but then, last year was different, my depression got worse for multiple reasons. there wasn't a day that I went through I didn't think of killing myself, I thought I was in the rock bottom but I was wrong because everyday I felt like I was sinking deeper and deeper into depression. I lost interest in the things I enjoyed doing, I barely do anything now, I didn't write for a while because I can't get my mind to do such thing I can't concentrate and I get frustraited when I can't do a task that was so easy to do a few years ago, everytime I try writing I end up crying because my emotions and stupid thoughts always get the best of me, it is not easy anymore to write.

I don't need sympathy or anything, it just kills me everytime I go online and read your comments and how much you love the stories and you want more, it hurts 'cause I can't do such a small task. I am only seventeen and I need to focus on my recovery. I really appreciate you all for being such an amazing readers. Writing used to be my get away from everything around me but I can't do it now, but I promise you guys that I will get better and I will write again but I don't know when that will be, just give me time. I really love you all 💕