So today, I went to the beach to attend a wedding and reunion with my parents, brother and cousin so that left my grandparents alone in the house to be visited with a doubtly still part of my own extended family tree. It was a nice day for me, not having to deal with people I don't really hate because they hated my mother (actually only she, but kinda brainwashed everyone else, I guess because everyone on her side seemed to think of the same way she did just because my mom helped my cousin she hated to enrol in college...wtf, right?).

So before I graduated this year's March, the school had a job fair for the graduates to have a chance of getting a job sooner and I have taken an exam on one of the companies that same day without any idea of what the exam is all about and I passed the written exam. On our class who took the same exam, maybe around ten of us, only me and on other female classmate passed. Lucky for me, huh? I really did my best on it. The next day was the interview, HR and technical interview and I could really say that I did good in the interview.

There were 4 interviewers and one of them is my father's cousin who was by chance on her side. So I thought it was good and we actually exchanged greetings and he recignized me. He was not one of those two people who interviewed me one-on-one. So they just told us they would call us if they want us to be their trainees.

I had my doubts, strong ones, that I could be able to get the training for some reasons. One, my parents doesn't want me to be alone on another island away from home because, really, our place is really not that safe. Two, most companies don't accept someone who's a relative of one of the employees. Three, I really think he would consider the feud in our family.

So, I really didn't hope to get a call and I received nothing from them but still, received calls and messages from other companies that I can take the job. But those companies were not my ideal companies to work with. Yes, I'm pretty picky even in jobs.

Then a few times this year she, the one who hates my mom, asked me why I wasn't able to get qualified for the job where her cousin works as the head manager. She's my dad's sister, by the way. I said I ave no idea because I believe I did well.

That's when the reasons came out. The head manager, my dad's and her cousin, called to her office and said that I wasn't answering in the interview. HOW WOULD I FCKIN KEEP SILENT IN A JOB INTERVIEW?! So I just told her I answered every question I was asked. She also asked me if I told the interviewers that I am somewhat related to the head manager and... how wouldn't they know when he actually shook my hand in front of the exam passers and asked me if I know him? Seriously.

Then relatives would come and visit our home and ask me if I have a job and when I say that I don't have one, they would always tell me to do well in job interviews.

And just when I got home tonight, my grandfather told me that I my voice was soft during the interview. She told my grandfather that she got that from him, the head manager.

And what does he even know? He wasn't the one who had a one-on-one interview with me. And do they expect me to answer loudly when there are only two people in the interview? I was using a moderate voice! Just wth! THEY DON'T HAVETO MAKE FCKIN LAME LIES TO SAY THAT I DIDN'T GET THE JOB BECAUSE I DIDN'T DO WELL IN THE INTERVIEW! They could have just said that I lack skills and stuffs or whatever because I DIDN'T FAIL EVERY JOB INTERVIEWS! I just don't have a job now because like I said, I am picky. I don't want to spend my life doing a job that I don't enjoy!

They just won't leave me alone and why do they care? It's not like I'm keeping a reputation for them because they're all head managers and supervisors!

She hates my mom because my mom helped my cousin to enrol to college. I don't even know why she hates her own sister's son!

I have my life, nobody else's living this for me but me! Maybe I just don't want to act like an adult yet and I don't think I'm hurting anybody . My parents even support me for what I want to do and who are they, mainly she, to control me?

Now everyone on her side thinks I'm a lame relative who couldn't get a job. Oh, shut the fck up and mind your own business. I don't need your pity or help. I never asked for it.

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whew, this made me feel better..... y^o^y