I think of you talking with her. i think of you hugging her. I think of you someday loving her and then..... My heart aches. I feel soooooooo disgusted. Soooooo sick. Jealous? Nah... Cuz i dont want what you two have. But is cuz I know her. And is cuz I knew you....in way that no else did. In a way that I want no other woman to. 

But..... I must bow out and do so gracefully. Accepting my losses for what was and what could hv been. Am i supposed to not care? Hah! I wish that I didnt. But i do. But i wont show it, cuz once you're happy. 

When I think of another woman laying her hands on you..... I feel sick. I feel disgusted. I feel grossed out by the thought of...you two.