So December 13 is already over huh.  How are you guys coping. I'd found on my tlist today not as bad as I expected.  There's tears, broken heart here and there but mostly fans are learning to accept the new status of our pumpkin.  Frankly speaking I was in denial before today like seriously.  The feeling to curse everyone, to curse Sungmin everytime I see his face but I guess love is really an amazing thing.  I saw his wedding photos when I was working.  Yeap tears nearly fall but excuse me I won't show it to people I was crying for someone who doesn't even know I'm exist and furthermore I'm just merely a small fan from his million fans around the world.  I saw his smile.  His precious smiles.  We can see how happy he is with his decision.  I know the first time I read about the dating and marriage news, the one thing popped out in my mind is from all of those idols why does it have to be my bias ? Sungmin is a matured and in love man.  He's a human too and the problem with fans are they are alway expecting more from their idols but can't blame them.  Fans are the one who decided the up and down of k-idols.

After all has said and done I will try to accept that my bias is a happy married man.  Acceptance is hard when there's still upsetting emotion deep in our heart coz we only want to see what we want to see.  Sungmin might do wrong along the way before he's married but let's forgive him yes ?  Can't leave out the happy memories he gives us those past years.  And finally I've decided I will stop writing kyumin fanfics.  I know I'm not a famous author and my stories were so lame but writing gives me happiness and I didn't know myself I could write a 16 pages story. :) Writing is hard now and even reading kyumin fanfics gives me heartache.  So yeah to avoid typing a crappy fics I decided to just stop everything.  Actually I've a plot in my mind; an angst of course but nevermind.  Not like anyone would read anyway and coz of this news I don't have any heart anymore to type it.  Sungmin's marriage ended my life as a kyumin author (lol). But along the way and those past years I believe what kyumin had was real. <3

So buh-bye guys.  Stay strong and yeah...keep strong and be healthy.

I'm logging out from kyumin's world.