You don’t really have to read it if you don’t want to…

I just want to let out my emotions T^T

Some might be wondering where I had gone to or whether I am still breathing…

I am really sorry for being gone for long. I just had to deal with a lot of things lately.

• First, is about my grades. So uhm as what I have told you before, I am a dean’s lister, but then I almost got erased in the list because of a certain teacher.  We were so happy when we got the grade slip because I was able to sustain my grades even though all we had was major subjects but then we noticed the blank space where she was supposed to put our grades.

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                We ended up talking to the program head about it and guess what I got an effin 2.25 on it!!! Like what the heck! We worked hard for her subject. We tried contacting her in the nicest way asking as to why we ended up getting such low grades (she didn’t fail any of us but our grades was only between 80-75) we would not have questioned her if only we knew what had happen.

                We got an answer but what she said broke my heart. I was damn depressed in losing my laude candidacy but she ended up scolding us for doing poorly in the exam. (we were beating deadlines and it was not only her who gave us hell projects to be submitted before the exam). So when I told my parents about it, my father was so angry that he went to talk to the dean (he is a professor anyway)

                After a long time of waiting, we were able to talk to her face to face. She made up a lot of excuses and in the end we found out that she never included in the computation the grade about the proposal that she made us submit as part of the exam. When things were clear my grades increased by 10 points as well as my classmates.

• Second, I was forced to resign from my position. I thought that everything was going to be okay after the incident but no it never went well. The Dean who used to talk to me happily ends up ignoring me. My father told me to just focus on my studies. I had a lot of plans for the organization but it all went to waste making me feel like I am such a failure. I also had to resign in the council and since everyone was busy due to an event it feels like I left them hanging in the air which resulted to them ignoring me. The teachers doesn’t trust us anymore

• Third, we are now having our OJT. I was assigned to the strictest office but since my boss was always out without giving me any work at all, I feel like I am just being a burden to the employees. They even ask me to leave. Fortunately, I was moved to another office with a more approachable boss and friendly employees. Now I am worrying about the lacking number of hours >.<

• Fourth, love life and friendships are at stake. Remember that oppa that I was telling you before? Well he transferred schools and you know what happens when you don’t see each other most often right? I was used to giving him phone calls and messages during the first months. We even made plans about visiting but then whenever he comes to school he would never visit me but he has time for his friends. He doesn’t even send messages so I ended up getting tired of trying. There was a time when he sent a message and I ended up asking who he is then he got mad at me for deleting his number. He even said that I am always busy so he didn’t bother me. I am a very vocal person because I want someone to talk to or else I will die because of the crazy thoughts. The feelings for him might still linger but I was able to move on and focus on other things.

About friends? Well we are doing this video for a certain friend who is going to be celebrating her birthday soon but then we need pictures and  since we are not always in school due to the OJT we asked someone else to do it but they ended up procrastinating.

• Fifth, exam is already next week. There are a lot of things to study so preferably, I would be staying up late once again =,= we still have all our major exams plus one minor and we are once again beating the deadlines

• Lastly, I am sick. You know how bad the weather is these days plus we use air-conditions in the office which makes my cold more severe. Now I cannot walk without holding a tissue. I am also having a slight fever so I am gonna rest for a bit.

Some of you might be wondering what Iook like, would you want me to post some pictures in here again???

P.S. I am really sorry for rambling too much. Hope you understand