Hi everyone! (Anyone?..*waves to empty room*)

I know there is probably no one reading this as it is my first post ever but lately I've had the feeling that I need to start opening up and this was the best way I could do that anonymously. So here it goes.

I'll give you a bit of a background about me. I'm usually in the background. I hardly ever comment to groups/stories so when I do you know you are amazing. Considering I'm on this site and not a regular bloggers site you can probably tell I like k-pop. Actually I like all things Asian, I always have. Mostly anime but it's only been about a year and a half since I got into k-pop and to be honest I find it really hard for day-to-day life. Another thing I should mention is that I am Australian and a girl in her early twenties. Also, I don't know anyone else that likes k-pop/k-dramas. I was introduced to it by my cousin who lives in another state when they came to visit once and I haven't looked back since. The only problem is that I have no one here to share that with. None of my friends follow it so I can't talk to them about it. Only a select few actually know that I follow it and only one of them is open minded enough to tolerate me playing k-pop in my car if we go somewhere. When someone new finds out that I like that sort of thing, or somethat already knows catches me reading an article about it, I get emmbarrased, enough so that I actively avoid telling new people because I get sick of feeling like they are judging me for having something different that I like, even though they may not even care, because I get scared and this frustrates me to no end!

I have had this issue with other things as well. Well before my love of anime and k-pop/k-dramas, I have had a love for sci-fi/fantasy (Doctor Who, Star Wars, Harry Potter, etc) and it took me years to come to terms with who I was and what I liked. I mean why is it more socially acceptable to actively follow a sports team or player than an anime or "geeky" TV series? I have a brother that can fanboy over sports maybe even harder than I could ever fangirl over my idols, yet it's somehow okay for him to do it in public but it's not for me?

It's really hard to find a balance here. I'm to cut back on the things I love because that's not being true to myself. But if I'm hiding this from people, is that not just another way of not being true to myself? And here is another thing that has always had me worried (as I am a single girl); if I am meeting an Asian guy, would they find it a turn off, or fettish-esq if they knew I liked k-pop or Asian things in general? Or would it be more of a "I'm in with a better chance" type of situation, because hey, lets face it, Asian guys are hot and it could be seen as a compliment, no? And vice-versa, would a non-Asian guy find it weird that I like watching Asian men dance around on my laptop screen? Oh the woes of meeting new people!

I know that I have missed many opportunities in talking to some really cool people because of this social situation and I want to know your take on it. So, dear readers (if there are actually any of you out there...hello?), What do you think?

I hope this was ok, I've never written like this before. I'll find something better to write about next time, I promise!

Until then,

- J