I Woke Up Crying Today

As you can see in the tittle, I woke up crying. 

 

My dream had been exacty what I've been wanting to tell my dad for the past 4 years.

 

So it started when we were at a mall. He got everyone else a nice cup of soda or something else and he got me water. I know you think this is stupid but whatever.

 

"Why do I get the water?" 

 

"You can find water anywhere. Just get up if you want anything else." And that's when I burst into tears. But I was hiding myself so no one could see.

 

I guess I had an older sister in this dream because she noticed me crying and told my dad off.

 

"Can't you see what you're doing to her!? Can't you see that she's crying because of you? What is wrong with you?"

 

"She's doing it for the attention." And that's when I got angry, frustuated because I wasn't standing up for myself. By this time the location changed and I was now in my house.

 

"Why did you make such a scene?" He asks.

 

"You really want to know? Really?" I asked him. He rolled his eyes and nodded. That's when I stood up and immediatly the tears came and I just started shouting.

 

"IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT! WHY THE HELL DO YOU NOT CARE!?"

 

"What the hell are you talking about?"

 

"You treat me as if I'm nothing ! I hate you!"

 

"What did you just say?"

 

"I said that I hate you. I never want to see you again, get out of my house. Why did you have to mess everything up!?" 

 

"What the hell are you talking about?" Thats when he walks closer.

 

"WHY THE HELL DID YOU HAVE TO LEAVE!?" 

 

"Why not?" And that was when I thought he was going to hit me.

 

"I DONT CARE ANYMORE I'M TIRED OF BEING AFRIAD OF YOU! HIT ME! HIT ME AS HARD, AS MUCH AS YOU NEED. THAT'S MORE FOR ME TO HATE!" He started laughing.

 

"You're my daughter, you can't hate me." 

 

"Oh, but I will after this." And I pushed him so hard that he fell to the ground. I was just standing there, looking for the anger in his eyes.

 

"Leave. Go back to that that helped you turn me into this." And with that he left. I woke up. I started crying for a good 5-8 minutes.

 

Is this a sign telling me that I should say something...or...? 

 

I just need reasurence before I do anything wrong.

 

Sorry for taking your time.

 

Bye.

 

Exotic_Gurl

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Alyania #1
2014 was a year where kpop idols used their voices for more than just singing. They spoke up. They shouted out loud at the unfair world. You should do the same. The name of the only distance between your dreams and reality is action. You can stand up and show these unsympathetic people in your lives who don't know how to appreciate you that yes, indeed, there are people who care about you. When the people on the Internet care more about you than the people around you then it is time for a change. If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here for you. Good luck with everything!
KPOPmeow #2
don't keep it to your self :D this dream is trying to show u something or telling u to do something :D
InvisibleSoul #3
Don't keep it to yourself. This dream shows how strong you are.. you need to say something. To shout. You deserve a better treatment. Aspecially from your father.
I never stood up to my father and look at me.. an 18 years old who fears of comunicating with people, who always thinks of others instead of her, who takes her family on her back... and who's going to miss her first and last prom because she doesn't want to bother her parents.
i don't believe in friendship.
i don't believe I'm beautiful.
i don't believe in love.
and all because I was programed to be the humilating puppet of my family.
Stand for yourself. Be strong. Do what others can't, and be their motivation.
ExoKissAndHugs #4
Fighting! Himnae!
hobikwangoo #5
You shouldn't be keeping this to yourself, yeah we might give encouraging words and all but for it to be settled, you really need to sort it out, whatever it is, with your dad. Okay? Good luck darls! ^3^
Amby9318 #6
Exactly what everyone said :(you should deff talk this out. It's not good to hold things in like this. I'm always here for u :) fighting!!!!
kim-may #7
I think you two should have a talk, maybe you should tell your father how you feel and hopefully you'll work things out
Exotics44 #8
I think a good talk might help. I'm not really sure as I'm the oldest in my family ( I have an annoying brother who pisses me off everyday) but not a lot of people have the courage to do so.
Anyways, fighting unnie.
My suggestion is not really good, but there are many other people wanting to help you!
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mztpar #9
I see....well this depends if ur father actually treated u like that in real life. If he did then itd understamdable for u to feel that way. The event of him leaveing probably had a huge impact on you. Unless u feel sad when u think about it in real life I dont think its messcary to tell him. Its natural for u to feelt hat way. I was ually harassed but when i think about it it doesnt make me cry or disgusted. But even so i still sometimes have dreams where he would come back. But thats all it is. Dreams because the situtaion had a huge impact. Things can have impact in ur life but they might not be signifigant to u.
MoroccanBlackDragon #10
First of all, Water is always a good sign but when u refused it maybe it means he tried to do u some good but failed since he ended up being scolded. also, he may not be aware of how u feel since he seemed confused in some parts of what u said. Maybe he needs u to clear things up. U know, men on being close with their daughters generally.
OTPisLIFE #11
I think the best way to handle the situation is to deliver your words in a calm way. If he pushes you, don't push back. If ever you push back, it's like you're telling him that you can't be close with each other.
First, Tell him how you feel in a calm way. If he fights back, don't fight either. Just listen to what he says.

Second, Ask him what he has to say against your feelings. Listen carefully and DO NOT cut him off.

Third, Explain and ask him on how you two can both change.

Lastly, Tell him that you love him. That is the reason why this happened. Explain to him that you truly love him and you feel betrayed if he does something to you.

If the fight gets physical, make sure your family is at the exact same place you two are. Hwaiting! <3
magicalkpop #12
Omg I... Omg umh... what is the situation at the moment? is he... uhm.. never mind, I'm sorry it's your personal life. but I really hope for you to forget about that horrible dream! If it's still in your heart more that 2days than you should really do something I guess... fighting! <3
chankyu61 #13
Oms..... Im so sorry.... I am kinda in that situation
suzieee_34 #14
It's okay. Dreams are sometimes just exaggerated projections of our feelings, notice the 'sometimes' not an 'always'. If you are doing to say or do anything, make sure to do it with a calm voice and a cool mind, no 'heat of the moment' things that you could regret later. Anger is hardly ever a good option, rather, approach the problem with optimism and hope.

(also, it makes people feel bad and guilty if you seem remorseful and calm but if you come at them shouting and angry, they feel like it's your fault and they get angry at you.)

It will be alright.
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