I'm just having one of my worse days I guess...

Let's just say that today hasn't been such a great day, just like the entire past week. 

I'm trying so hard to stay on track, but sometimes I just feel so alone and hopeless. Last year around this time, I suffered from the worst depression-period of my life and I really don't want to go back there. But I'm still doing a really bad job when it comes to taking care of myself.

Writing is one of the things that make me happy, and that's why this whole fandom and website means so much to me. I always feel happy when I read and write fanfiction, or communicate with friends and readers, but just like anybody else I'm not always the happy person I appear to be behind the screen.

For quite a while now I've been starting to neglect my own needs. Most days I feel just fine and follow my own diet and exercise plan, but recently I've been skipping meals and some days not eaten at all, not because I want to, but because I simply don't have an appetite. My insomnia has gotten worse and I'm lucky if I can get even one hour of sleep per night. These two quickly adds up to quite a few fainting spells, blurry vision, nosebleeds and massive headaches.

I really don't want to go back to where I was last year, because I've become so much happier with myself and my life since. I don't want one period of sadness to spiral into something bigger.

I'm not writing this as some sort of "I'm quitting" post, because like I said, writing makes me immensivly happy, and I love this website and all that it has to offer. This was just a little rant to get some things off my chest. I hope you guys understand.

Please take care of yourselves, and take care of one another.